past trauma
"We may feel weak and fragile in the face of past mistakes, regrets, or traumas. It's as if we are trapped in a web of our own making. Yet, it is the sole reason for what we are now. ❤️ Embrace it and let it go. Sometimes, we may regret why we did what we did, and sometimes, we are happy about it. If we think deeply, we can see it is just in our mind. If we think of the past as a joyful memory, it will be, and the contradiction is also true.
The past self of us has its own reasoning for what it did and why it did it. It may have failed to convince the present self of us, yet it did the right thing that it had to. We must forgive ourselves for those mistakes and try not to repeat them. We can't solve the same question with old wrong answers, isn't it? Sometimes, we feel vulnerable and victimized by ourselves and lock ourselves apart from the present. 'Oh, you did that. You've hurt them. How can you be happy?' and all. Let me tell you something: people make mistakes, and it should not define who you really are.
A bad impression on yourself by you is the obstacle you should overcome, and eventually, everything will fall into place.