May December

The rain fell cool and easy. There was a warmth behind it, washing away the cold winter ice. I closed my umbrella. I looked to the sky and asked for forgiveness. I was confused, lost. I knew what I had done was wrong but I didn’t feel it. And for that I sought redemption. Cleanse my soul oh great sky. She cried.

They had talked earlier that day. She told him they should go away together. He said he asked another girl if she wanted him. He was drunk the night before. He called out her name but forgot the next day. She opened up a new world to him. A place where he could satisfy the desire stewing silent. He betrayed his wife, and embraced his dark midnight. To him, she was a utility to freedom. To her, he was freedom. It began safe. She could be fearless and vulnerable because there was nothing to lose. But his wild grew hungry and wide and one-sighted. He forgot her back where he first found her. He still went to her, but only out of convenience and familiarity. And she kept her door open, and her bed and legs, and her heart. Breaking slowly she ended it with the tears of his lost innocence. And hers.

And to that, it was a beautiful demise. Long lost behind a beast hiding beneath our fallen angel. Love that could have been destroying everything in its path.