Annie on my mind (now in my hands)

(small 16+ warning but nothing bad)

I hold her tight, crying onto each others shoulders as we finally get to see each other again. I nearly lean to kiss her but stop, knowing better than to do it here in the streets

"oh Annie, its been so long" I whisper to her, clutching her a little tighter "I've missed you I am so sorry I never wrote back"

she smiled, whispering back to me and I could tell she was holding back laughter "I missed you too. I'm glad to see you, so glad"

we stayed hugging not too much longer, pulling apart and ignoring the man giving up a strange look across the street. I turn to Annie, smiling as I speak. "would you like to see my dorm? Its a little messy still but I think it'll be cozy too"

"oh of course!" she doesn't even hesitate, looping her arm with mine and looking at me with a smile. I cant even contain my own happiness as I take her to my apartment, unlocking my room and leading her in.

I help her get her bags into my bedroom, not even considering setting up a second bed as the two of us lied down on my full size bed, clinging close above the blankets.

"I've spent weeks missing you" Annie whispered "I thought you never wanted to talk to me again or- or my letters hadnt gone through" I look into annie's eyes as she speaks, frowning and shaking my head "no no I'm so sorry I never responded. I just couldn't bring myself to long someone so far from me. I was scared"

we were both scared. always scared of being caught again. I had lost my scholarship to my first choice university when they found out I was homosexual. luckily, it stayed under wraps before any other universities I applied to found out.

we lied in silence for a long time, just enjoying the closeness of one another that we hadn't felt in nearly a year. I shed tears for some it it, Annie did as well. we shared our emotions, a long with out love. the love what was hated by so many.

I was so glad to kiss her after so long, finally allowing her to explore my body like we had planned on so long ago. of course we had never had the safety to do so until now.

when I tensed as she reached to unclip my bra she stopped, smiling and pressing a kiss to my cheek and just laying back down with me until I was ready again.

I was ready this time. I was ready for everything we did and I was glad we were able to finally enjoy it, glad I could feel her skin and whisper her name against it without any fear of being caught.

it was the best feeling in the world. I never want to give it up.

I never want to give my Annie up