(small 16+ warning but nothing bad)

I hold her tight, crying onto each others shoulders as we finally get to see each other again. I nearly lean to kiss her but stop, knowing better than to do it here in the streets

"oh Annie, its been so long" I whisper to her, clutching her a little tighter "I've missed you I am so sorry I never wrote back"

she smiled, whispering back to me and I could tell she was holding back laughter "I missed you too. I'm glad to see you, so glad"

we stayed hugging not too much longer, pulling apart and ignoring the man giving up a strange look across the street. I turn to Annie, smiling as I speak. "would you like to see my dorm? Its a little messy still but I think it'll be cozy too"

"oh of course!" she doesn't even hesitate, looping her arm with mine and looking at me with a smile. I cant even contain my own happiness as I take her to my apartment, unlocking my room and leading her in.

I help her get her bags into my bedroom, not even considering setting up a second bed as the two of us lied down on my full size bed, clinging close above the blankets.

"I've spent weeks missing you" Annie whispered "I thought you never wanted to talk to me again or- or my letters hadnt gone through" I look into annie's eyes as she speaks, frowning and shaking my head "no no I'm so sorry I never responded. I just couldn't bring myself to long someone so far from me. I was scared"

we were both scared. always scared of being caught again. I had lost my scholarship to my first choice university when they found out I was homosexual. luckily, it stayed under wraps before any other universities I applied to found out.

we lied in silence for a long time, just enjoying the closeness of one another that we hadn't felt in nearly a year. I shed tears for some it it, Annie did as well. we shared our emotions, a long with out love. the love what was hated by so many.

I was so glad to kiss her after so long, finally allowing her to explore my body like we had planned on so long ago. of course we had never had the safety to do so until now.

when I tensed as she reached to unclip my bra she stopped, smiling and pressing a kiss to my cheek and just laying back down with me until I was ready again.

I was ready this time. I was ready for everything we did and I was glad we were able to finally enjoy it, glad I could feel her skin and whisper her name against it without any fear of being caught.

it was the best feeling in the world. I never want to give it up.

I never want to give my Annie up

thank you for the scars

that im too healed to make

the old ones in your honor

new ones i must fake

thank you for the tears

enough to drown with

you make me feel

like my emotions are myth

thank you for the words

that caused me pain

those letters of poison

lodged into my brain

thank you for the silence

time when i thrive

until i decide again

to take the dive

thank you for you anger

you know its a scare

when peoples tones change

this really isnt fair

thank you for these feelings

some good some bad

i really hope one day

you stop making me so sad

thank you for the codes

that you never use

its out language

that you seem to want to lose

thank you for my knowledge

things we got to expierence

exploring good and bad

ill never been happier since

and thank you for love

false or true

for i cannot tell

when it comes to you

(tw cursing yelling kinda disturbing shit and death... also real events)

(the status of the girl is unclear, we never knew if she lived or not but they carried her away under a white blanket)

asylum is a rude word for this place

we are not insane

we are not going to go crazy

well... not again

no nonono now were getting help

now were locked up here waiting, waiting for the day we get to leave and the open the doors waiting for the day that we dont have to do those strip searches no i cannot wait im going to be free let me BE FUCKING FREE I WANNA BE FREE

(please focus on the prompt)

im sorry

im sorry im sorry imsosorry i didnt meant to be rude im sorry IM SORRY

(just focus on the prompt)

right

that

its silly

i was locked up for a week

never called them asylums

not anymore its rude

when i got out i went tow months before being locked up again

this time it was for two weeks

did you know that sometimes when you go to a safe place you can watch a girl get murdered?

hahahahahahaha

i didnt

but i did

(please return to your prompt)

im sorry

i got out after two weeks locked up there

but mommy made me go away again

this time i was locked up in a better place

where they would "help" me

(did they help you?)

a little bit

they told me what was wrong with me but mommy said i couldnt get the medicine to help me

i dont have help i need help i dont like heading them

(the peompt)

I HATE HAVING TO FUCKING HEAR THEM LET ME GO! LET ME FUCKING GO!

(please sit down)

FUCK YOU FUCKYOU FU-

(are you ready to continue?)

no

(do you have a choice?)

no

(then please continue)

i was locked up from feburary until july

i know that lack of freedom, the sobbing the fights

its funny though

i made family there

a friend who wittnessed the same death as me

my family

i miss them

i miss the crazy sometimes

but im glad i dont have to do it anymore

until i lose it again

The icecubes in milk,

no one would touch,

unless shaved up to be that

of a milkshake

Cannot be natural

taking a wanted form

be small and hidden

brave the blended storm

I am the icecube,

unwanted on my own

but if I hide in false character

maybe ill be loved

(tw: cursing, mentions of blood&death, incorrect capitalization and punctuation)

going outside is nice

that is until youre running up the stairs into your house as quickly as possible while a car charged up the hill at you

your cries are silent, muted by the roar that no one else can hear.

its going to kill you and unless your legs can safely reach the door it will succeed in its task.

you glance back at it, raising a hand with all fingers down except the middle one

going outside is nice

that is until you jump up from your little bench, screaming as the roars make their way from the street below and up the hill, to your back yard.

you try to cry for your parents help but cant be heard over the car engine in your ears. its only in your ears.

the engine seeks the contact to your flesh, the crack to your bones, the blood it will get when it crushes your skull

you race towards the stairs to your door, climbing them as those headlights near you, screaming for your death on its hood

you glance at the door, knowing you wont make it and scream in an attempt to get the care away

"FUCK OFF"

going outside is nice

that is until you see the car

its headlights pointed at the houses at the bottom of the hill

the light slightly casts onto you aswell

you freeze, knowing better than to wait more than a minute

you dont want to risk your death

you raise your hand, middle finger up and hold it

the car turns onto the road

the car leaves

youre finally free

good luck tomorrow night

tomorrow night the bus comes and the only way to escape is to hide before it sees you

Dead silence fills the space until a small clip. The hidden sound of a laptop booting up as a tireless teen wakes the morning of their final exams. Anxiety fills the childs head, unable to go back to bed as they set their alarm half an hour early.

They listen to the stirring from the computer working as they plan what to do next. Take a shower? Wait until their normal waking time? Go back to sleep?

No

They open their chromebook and enter a world they've never been in, thet write a paragraph and sign it

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