Changing to Darkness

There's something about change that makes me want to scream. Why can't things go back to the way they were before? I was happy, I was young, I had no worries. Life happened, change happened and now I'm like this. The world can be cold and dark and lonely and all it takes is one mistake for everything to crumble.

I'm trapped in the past.

Hoping each day won't be my last.

Who I was before,

I am not anymore.

The darkness creeps in,

I learned and sinned.

I thought I knew,

But now I don't know who.

Who am I?

Years ago I would cry,

If I just knew what life would be like now I would have chosen to die.