Do you know the story of David? Usually when this question is ask the story of David and Goliath is brought up. How, against all odds David slayed the giant and saved his people. People remember him as a hero. For me, this is a big encouragement. If you delve deeper into the Bible you would find that David was an incredibly selfish King who saw his best friends wife bathing and wanted her for himself. He sent his friend into battle hoping for his death because of his lust. Yet, we all remember David as a hero. This just shows me that focusing on the positive is important. I also want to be remembered for my good deeds and not my sins.

There's something about change that makes me want to scream. Why can't things go back to the way they were before? I was happy, I was young, I had no worries. Life happened, change happened and now I'm like this. The world can be cold and dark and lonely and all it takes is one mistake for everything to crumble.

I'm trapped in the past.

Hoping each day won't be my last.

Who I was before,

I am not anymore.

The darkness creeps in,

I learned and sinned.

I thought I knew,

But now I don't know who.

Who am I?

Years ago I would cry,

If I just knew what life would be like now I would have chosen to die.