Existential thoughts
1 am
he's better than me.
not because hes better than me but because hes better for you. he fits you better.
you guys are cuter than we could ever be.
this isn't me giving up.
this is me admitting we are both, meant for better things.
because I too, will find someone, better for me. although I’d argue you’re what’s good for me still.
2 am
I've often wondered about what leads a man to drink,
Is it for the painful pleasure of alcohol,
Or the thrill of drowning: his seven year old self?
2:30 am
my pillow has never felt more uncomfortable to the thought that I can’t tell if I’m feeling things purely out of love or the fact it might be an unhealthy obsession.
4 am
there isn’t better, there is no replacement. Nothing holds in comparison to you so I smoke my cigarette because it’s the closest feeling to being alive when I was with you.