I Will Wait For You For As Long As It Takes

Today too, I wait for her at the school entrance.

I still vividly remember how she gasped in joy the first time she saw me waiting for her here. How her face beamed with pure happiness. How she hurriedly came and grabbed my hand and dragged me with her. She felt comfortable doing this with me only. We did this every single day. We chatted about trivial things, and laughed our heads off as if there was no one around us. We were total weirdos who didn’t give a * about what other people thought of us.

She had no one else waiting for her like this, and I had no one else to wait for.

I was excluded from everywhere. Neither my family nor my friends accepted me for who I was. But that girl, she was the only one who was happy to be with me. Who liked me the way I was.

I knew how lonely she was. I wanted to be by her side for a long time and make good memories together. But in the end, I, too, betrayed her and left her alone.

I see her coming this way, hoping that she will brush past me. But to my surprise, she looks at me. My eyes meet hers.

She can't see me, I know. But I see her. In the gaze of her big eyes, loneliness and pain of loss are clearly reflected. She stares at the place so hard that I have this intense urge to grab her hand, or hug her.

Finally, she turns away. I silently follow her. She called this place 'the entrance of friendship'. At the end of long school hours, this short time we accompanied each other were the best time we had. This place was full of our memories. We left invisible footprints on this road. I guess she is being haunted by those memories.

She had another friend besides me. I wonder why that friend left early, leaving her alone at a time like this. Shouldn’t she come and comfort this sad lonely girl, now that I'm not around?

While getting into the car, she looks at me once again. For a split second, I wonder if she can really see me. Well, she once said we're soulmates. Maybe that's why I'm still lingering around her? Because she can't let me go just yet.

In that case, I'll wait for her tomorrow too, and the day after tomorrow, and after that...