A Letter to the Boy I Can’t Dump.
4 years of my life and I want to let go, but it's like I've entered this never-ending cycle of putting things off. This relationship brings me nothing but benefits, there are no cons. Unless of course, you count the fact that I spend every day with one foot out the door. I'm sorry, not because I don't love you anymore, but because when I tell you I do it's all just a lie. But who am I lying to here? Me or you? Each time I come with a hammer in hand ready to tear down the walls we spent so much time building, you ask me why the only thing I want to do is destroy. And when I see your face I can't bear to explain that those walls keep me confined and it's not you I want to knock down. Maybe I love you and maybe I don't, but the fact I have to ask tells me what I need to know.