Seasons Change

You told me you could not start what you already set into motion,

And I hate to admit it but I knew before you told me but I didn't want to accept it.

I wanted to believe you would be the first to stay

I wanted it so bad I denied everything that got in the way of it

Because I just needed someone.

You told me you still cared

But I'm in the dark

I am Euridice and you are Orpheus but you gave up on finding the road.

You chose to leave me in a hell you put me in.

You let me know through the deafining silence when I tried to explain my emotions.

Yet you expected me to still be your shoulder to cry on.

You told me I was your White Ferrari

While you pushed me to the back corner like something forgotten long ago.

You relished on the pain it caused me to be left behind.

The way you explained it to me I thought I was Persephone in the spring,

eagerly waiting for the time she will return to her lover

but you left me above, all alone.

You tried to visit but you would sit in silence that hurt me more than when you were gone.

I realized soon that you only wanted me as the one that got away so that I would always be waiting in the shadows, ready for you when you decided you wanted me.

You merely wanted another possession,

Something to lay claim to whenever you so decide.

You haunt me still,

Over a year later because I gave you the power.

I drive on an empty road my thoughts blowing out with the wind,

Till I pass a car with a broken headlight and wish it was you.

I knowingly lie in wait for something I do not even want anymore,

Because in the end I would turn my car around to tell you one last goodbye.

I chose my eternal spring,

yet you wallow in your empty castle,

forever pushing away anyone who gets to close.

I only hope when you think about me that you do not regret letting yourself embrace the spring.