Embryonic Stages of a Truly Phenomenological Experience

Am I asleep

or awake in a dream

are things normal

so it would seem

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Ideas transmuted

subservient to life

mirthless attitude

intellectual strife

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Nightly rituals

oasis in my mind

resuscitate reality

troubling bind

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Destroyed by sarcasm

love is a gift

emotional breezes

provide uplift

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Wild compromise

sensuous delight

posed cynicism

optimistic tonight

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Subtle variations

fragmentary thoughts

ambitious psychology

carefully overwrought

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Am I still dreaming

within a nightmare

categorical sufferance

I’m painfully aware

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Awkward equilibrium

exquisite blackout

poetic bliss

asymmetrical route

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Self discovery

perverse desire

lecherous ideations

personal quagmire

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Tormenting questions

surge of exuberance

hostile psychosis

mental incumbrance

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Paraphernalia of existence

causality of my being

limitless creativity

psychically freeing

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Externalized dreams

quantum conversion

chaotic knowledge

metaphysical excursion

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Syncopated heartbeat

shortness of breath

achieving autonomy

I no longer fear death