4/15/2024

I’ve had to come to terms with a lot of hard truths lately. I’ve been fighting and not accepting. But I’m not going to be able to live my dreams.

I’m too old to from a band and have a hit song. I haven’t been able to get an agent so I won’t be able to get my fantasy series published. I’ve outgrown it and no longer believe the messages it was meant to spread like belief and hope and love. I won’t be able to write or edit that story any longer. I can barely write anything at this point.

But the biggest and hardest truth I’ve accepted is that I’m gonna be alone and I’m going to have to find some way to come to terms with that. I’ve never done well alone but I have to find a way to hang on for my kids.

I need to focus on my kids. I have to try my best to help them live the lives I wasn’t able to live. I have to motivate them and encourage them to live their dreams before it’s too late. I have to help instill them with confidence so when they meet the people they’re meant to be with, they don’t make the same mistakes I’ve made. I don’t want any of them to grow up to be like me, hopeless, angry, bitter. They’re really all I have at this point. They’re my life and I want the best for them.