warning signs
1.
why did nobody warn me
before I watched 'sleeping with other people'
that all that I would see
in an emotional relationship
that never became more;
in the best friendship,
with two parts of one soul,
in a lobster,
in his one that got away, in his "that's for my girl", in a love so deep they dared not cross that line,
that the only people I would see in all of that
was me
and
you?
2.
and why did no one warn me
before I watched 'dear john'
thinking it was a bad romance adaptation,
that while there is love in it, fine,
it's actually a movie
about accepting differences
and autism
and illness
and fathers and their children?
and why did no one warn me,
the autistic child of
the undiagnosed autistic father
who was so badly hurt by the world
that he turned on his own children,
abused and mistreated them,
that I
would not
could not
ever
be
prepared?