Old Habits

Six days away & I'm sober

I'm older & colder

I left all my crying behind

Now, I'm fine

Released back to the world

I'm a brand new girl

A beautiful girl

I wish I could tell you, it hurts

It hurts

Dried up & pilled up, I'm cured

Lacking this innocence

I'm so impure

I'm so unsure if I'll ever be free

If I'll ever be me

Today I wrote a song in my own blood

I gave into my sins, it felt good

And I should ask for some help 

I am clawing myself

Clawing myself again

(2x)

Rain turns to snow & I'm falling

Calling your name

It's appalling, this game

Appalling this shame that I feel

Old wounds never heal

Lost in my dreams

I imagine a world that I'm absent from 

Absinthe & rum 

Glide down my throat

Sugarcoat

I've abandoned this boat

I open my eyes

I'm pulled back into this

Destruction & piss

No true love's kiss

But I won't give in

I won't give in

The sun turns to night & I'm up

I'm awake & I'm ready

But still so unsteady

I'm walking on stones

My own broken bones

Leave me alone

Leave me alone

Today I wrote a song in my own blood

I gave into my sins, it felt good

And I should ask for some help

I am clawing myself

Clawing myself again

(2x)