Errant Thoughts

I spend a lot of time thinking about worlds beyond my own. Places that may not even exist. I know it’s normal for someone like us, but actually going there, unfortunately, is not.

An ant seeing the side of a building has no comprehension of the colossal construct in front of it. It can’t comprehend the way it scrapes the sky like a steel claw, it can’t understand that contained within it are a million things that dwarf it in every possible way.

It certainly doesn’t find itself wishing to be a part of it. And yet, I find myself in the curious position of being an ant who does. I long to glimpse beyond into something clearly not meant for me, something well beyond me in every way.

I want that, more than anything. And the worst part is…I think I want that for everyone else too. Whether they want it or not.

Is that wrong? Does that make me a bad person? To want to forcibly rip the wool from the eyes of an entire world, even if they’re not ready, even if I’m not ready. Even if I had the power to do so, I don’t know if I should.

And yet, I find myself thinking, “When will we ever consider ourselves ready?”. We won’t. We never will. And so, why not.

In the immortal words of Bilbo Baggins, “Why shouldn’t I?”.

Hopefully, should it ever come to pass, should we ever draw back the cosmic curtain and find ourselves faced with the next great step in the celestial plan (if any exists), it goes better for us than it did for him.

Perhaps, just like him, it will simply take some time, muddling through chaos and hellfire, to reach an amazing destination.

Thanks for taking the time to read the egotistical ramblings of a Selfish Neurotic.