your parenting made me avoid begetting a child

so fierce unforgiving wicked stern easy to anger

belittling scolding "don't speak did i ask you to

your gifts childish poorly constructed garbage

why would you do this god you wretched rag

to be thrown in the fire weeping gnashing teeth

i'll beat god into you yet spare the fucking rod

on your bare bottom get the belt hit him again

i didn't ask to be a mother why are you so needy

get away from me begging to suck my dry nipple

heal yourself go out and play until called to sleep"

I hear your voice still haunting daytime convictions

the specter of your genes tainting my thin blood

made me know I could never do to any poor child

what was done to me by you in the name of love