I’m so tired

Realised there's a pattern of complaining in my little diary, I'm not sure if It's because I can't complain in real life or if it's because I complain this much in real life. Safe to say I'm not happy about it. Really frustrating to see myself in that light..... I guess this practice is starting to pay off.

In more ways than one, the first being the fact that I have become more consistent simply because I've realised my inconsistencies. I once heard someone say you can only control what you see. I feel the inconsistencies almost on an hourly basis, it's helping me realise that I don't really care about people's opinions I'm just afraid that they might be true. When I know they're not true I almost forget they even exist, sounds crazy I know, but I really do forget the possibility that other people who have never met me could feel any way whatsoever about me. But when I fear the opinion might be true or rather when I start considering how people will react to a certain action or idea; it's all I can think about.