The way we once were

We're not the same as we once were.

I've been reading through our messages-

the ones where you said I was yours forever,

where you made me feel like I was beautiful,

where you said you wanted to hold me until I fell alseep,

because you knew that nights get hard sometimes.

And I saw the ones where we'd joke-

about the future, about you and me,

maybe a family together someday,

our future house, future jobs.

We were going to have it all.

The messages are making me cry,

more than usual tonight, like we're actually over this time.

I really hope you still read them too,

the "I love You's," the "See you tomorrow's,"

even the "screw you's," when we'd laugh and joke everyday.

I miss being able to tell you things and not feel bad about it.

I miss our old vibe,

where it was you and me against the world no matter what.

I wanted forever with you, and I thought you wanted it too.

We were all in, until we weren't.

It feels like we're strangers again, to be honest,

after how close we once were, the life we had planned out.

I had my whole career planned, and you wanted it all for me,

plus you by my side through it all, no matter where life would take us.

I want that for us.

I want all that love, plus more.