Numb (The Car Ride)

Motivation is fleeting

It comes and goes and seems to only come when my mind’s numb

A car ride after a long day, windows down, sun shining

Music seems to be a burden to my ears, I’d rather just hear the wind

I’m outwardly silent, but inwardly the conversation with myself couldn’t be louder

Ideas, plans, motivation, all of it comes in the silence of the car

I feel numb, it allows, for useless thoughts to blow away

Red light, green light, I didn’t notice a yellow

I must’ve stopped and started a couple times

The drive I can’t recall, If asked I’d fumble my words

I finally pull in to my home, but the thoughts still rage

I sit in my car, staring in a daze

Yet, when I walk into my home, I close the door, turn the lock

Outside clothes unneeded, they fall off my body

I wash the day away, then the towel begins a new start

I must’ve forgot the car ride, The motivation is loss

I wish I could bottle up those moments of motivation

Save for a rainy day, open it and let everything flow for hours

Life doesn’t work that way

It seems it only works when I’m Numb