Unfeasible

Somewhere out there - there are a million alternate universes.

One where my innocence lived on, and I had never gotten hurt.

Where I never became that drunk girl lying face down in the dirt.

One where I drew those lines, and never dared to cross.

Where I never chose that dark path that would surely get me lost.

One where I was still safe, and I never betrayed myself.

Where I never put that needle in or had to ask for help.

One where I still met him, our lives still sweetly overlapped.

Where he never took his own life, forcing me to adapt.

One where I didn't have to struggle, where I was able to be free.

Where I never had to fall so far from who I was meant to be.

One where he had never slipped, causing me to fold.

Where he didn't do it one last time, turning blue and cold.

One where he is here with us, laughing and watching her grow.

Where I am not sitting here, trying to cling to the unknown.