Dear God
I'm not feeling well today
I have this knawing ache
that won't subside. I cry almost everyday, alone, around my family and even lately, in public. I am a sinner. I've sinned more times than I can count, yet, you seem to be the most forgiving entity I know. I struggle with you and at times my faith, I question the Bible a lot and even at church speak up without understanding. You are a fearing God. The only man I fear, for my fate lies in your precious hands. I pray all day long, every day. You are how I start my morning, but the devil, he's steadfast in trying to ruin everything I worked so hard for. I know you see me and hear my prayers. I'm just exhausted with all the fighting and all of the nonsense. You created me and people still hate me and I just thought our perfect God would let love just run its course. Brothers and sisters of you don't always see eye to eye. I was lost. I still am, but I know when I see only one set of your feet prints in the sand, you are carrying me, I just hope it's to the pearly golden gates of a heavenly parallel.