Unexpected

She said our meet up was unexpected

But words have meanings

"Unexpected" is not a word to use, when you were waiting to see me

"Unexpected" is not a word to use, when you call our friend ten times to make sure I'm with her

"Unexpected" is a word for If I would've been numb to your presence

But I can't say that

I won't

I expected to lose myself at the sight of you

I expected to never want to let go of your hug

I expected to keep breathing your smell

I expected to want to kiss you

To tell you how much I've missed you

I expected to never see you again

So I don't feel those feelings

But I lied

To myself

To my friends

To my expectations

I don't know what I want

I don't know why your looking for me

I don't know why you said no to me, when I told you I liked you

I don't fuckin know anything anymore

Only this

Unexpected was earth not shattering that day

Unexpected was weather being sunny that day

Unexpected was everything being normal that day

Everything but us

Everything but me.