The last voyage
The sailor gets ready to voyage again
He packs everything
but feels like something is missing
Baits for fishing? There
Ropes? There
Provision for this voyage? There
"What am I missing?"
He hears her footsteps toward him
She smiles brighter than tonights stars
A universe hidden in her eyes
She came to buy the last fish he had
"It's on me."
"No please take the money."
" No, no... enjoy."
She leaves him
He sees her going farther
He wanted to tell her how he feels
He wanted to open himself to her
Maybe he never gets the chance to talk to her again
He dreamt of leaving this place
And now he can't leave
He comes back to this town
hoping that she comes to him
"What If she doesn't come?"
"What If she doesn't feel the way I do?"
"But I know there is a connection..."
He pushes the boat away from the dock
He realised what he was missing
He touched his bosom
His heart was still there
In the city.
″ The Simulator will see you now.”
" The Simulator will see you now."
He was a middle aged man with grey hair
He went inside the room;
The room was white
Nothing except a chair in it
He sat on the chair...waiting
He heard the voice
" Welcome traveller; where do you want to go?"
He sat there in silence, hesitant to answer the question
" I don't know."
" I can simulate anywhere, anytime, anyone. Who would you like to meet? "
" no one."
" Then why are you here? "
" I want you to simulate. "
" that is why I was made; to simulate for you humans anywhere, anytime or anyone. Tell me."
He closed his eyes
" Can you simulate me to where I have all the answers I need in my life? Can you take me somewhere I know what I'm here for? What I'm supposed to do? "
Robot didn't reply for a while
" I am sorry. I cannot do that."
" Why is that?"
" It is not in my programming to simulate that."
" What is in your programming?"
" I was made to simulate a place from patient's memories, to recall a distant feeling for them; happiness, sadness, nostalgia and more."
" you think maybe your creator can show me what I want? "
" I do not know."
" You remember your creator? You think he knew everything there was? "
" I don't remember his face, but he was a young man with a limp in his left foot; I do not know if he knew everything, but I do not know how to satisfy human's curiosity."
He got up
Opened the door
" neither do I. "
He exited the room, limping.
Lights
Lights are flickering
Hand shakes like meadows in a windy day
Thoughts crushing his head
Thoughts filled with regrets,shame and anger
Breathing like a 60 year old
Working like a young man
A vision he had for himself, lost
Remembering them, impossible
like trying to remember a good dream
A dream better than life
But he keeps going
To the unknown?
Or to the depths of darkness
Does he pick up the light?
Or does he go deeper and deeper
Does he find a courage?
Or watch his life fly away
A battle greater than any war is happening in him
Maybe he makes a promise to better himself
But he already broke most of his promises
To himself
To others
He smokes from time to time
He promised he'd never pickup a cigarette
He stopped his dreams
He promised he'd never do that
Is he a 60 year old regretting his past
Or a young man afraid of whats to come
For now
He sits there
Emotionless
Eyes fixed on nothingness
He sees light flickering away
Does he pick it up?
Or does he walk away.
In blink of an eye
In blink of an eye he saw it
A dream, Followed, not forgotten
A smile, natural, not forced
A life with her, Real, not imagined
Moments enjoyed, not hardly passed
He saw it all
Before he blinked again
And then it was all gone
"Sir...Sir? I would like to order."
He was back again
Was that a dream?
Or a life in another universe?
Or was that a possibility
He blinked again
But couldn't see it
The dream
The smile
The life
The moment.
Ignored In this side
And everywhere he went, he was Ignored
"What's going on?" He asked himself
An old man came to him with a smile
"Young man, don't be bothered by them, they're blind to the other side."
Old man picked up a half empty whiskey bottle from his coat and took a sip of it
He offered the bottle
Young man refused
" you're confused, everyone who joins is at first."
"Join? join where? "
"Afterlife."
Young man laughed in shock
"You're lying." He told the old man
Old man looked at him with a smile
"Dead tell no lies."
"But I didn't do anything with my life yet..."
Old man put his hands on young man's shoulder
" that's the thing son, The trouble is, you think you have time."
Helheim
Resting face
Ashtray is getting full
Whiskey bottle in my hand
Empty cup on the desk
I pour all that's left of it in the cup
Empty bottle now
Waiting to be filled again
With my anger
My pain
My soul's bottle is emptying now
"I could've had her"
"If she showed any interest at that cafe..."
Silence was all I got then
I was getting lost in her silence
She was hel
And I was in her realm
I was freezing then
I got cold now
Now all I do is drink and smoke
A prisoner in a void
In her silence
In her realm.
A captive heart
And there she was
Looking at me
With eyes filled with love
Like sparks of fireworks in the black sky of 4th of july
Speaking was becoming difficult
There was no way to think any
thought
Her eyes were chasing me
My mind wanted to get away from them
My heart didn't
I got lost in them
She left
But took my heart with her.
Darkness 1/2
Darkness was taking over
He didn't run away from it
He didn't fight
All he did was stare at it
"Don't let the darkness consume you"
He remembered their warnings
But he also remembered their lies
"They could've saved her." He
thought
As the darkness was getting closer
He didn't run away
Nor did he fight
He didn't have anything to lose
He was already "dead"