I’m Trying

I dream of worlds that come and go

Where I know I don't belong

But every day I wish to leave even though I know it's wrong

I see the places in my mind, the people that are there

I want so bad to leave my world and live without a care

It hurts to think about the ones that I would leave behind

But I think that they'd be better off without my neurotic mind

The person that I could be

If I could find a way to free

The spark inside of me

That no one else can see

I know it's not the right thing, for me to cast away

Everything I could ever be, just to go astray

Always I can feel it, the ever present siren song

It calls to me and says it's okay, even though I know it's wrong

I can never find it in myself to answer it's seductive call

But if that ever happens, and if I ever fall

Just know I'll love you always, and it will never be your fault

This world, it may not be for me

But for now I am still here

I will do whatever I can and I will always be near

I don't want this to hurt you, I just need someone to know

I always feel this weight on me, even if it doesn't show

I know it shouldn't be this hard, to just be here and exist

I guess it tends to help when I know that I'd be missed

Anyway, it's getting late, the dreams are calling me

Maybe now I'll get some sleep, since I've set my feelings free

I'll always love you father, I hope that's never been in doubt

I'll leave you here, but never fear

I'm okay, peace out✌