Count Me Out

I have started to notice,

that anytime I find anyone attractive

I always find reasons why we would not work together.

It's because I'm so loud and they are soft spoken,

they are so sporty and I hate to exercise,

they are calm and cool and I am anxious and depressed,

they are confident and I am insecure.

I sometimes wish that I could be in a relationship with someone

just so I don't have to walk through this world

finding ways why I won't measure up.

I want to skip to the part where someone loves me unconditionally.

But I also want to skip to the part where I love myself unconditionally.