You

Being talked off the ledge constantly by my family and friends for the past two months.

Even now there are people in my life urging me to protect “you” long after you destroyed my life and ran away like a coward. People who liked you and vouched for you. You hurt them too. B always looked up to you… how could you?

If I was a man, wouldn’t I be expected to fight to avenge my honor and the honor of my bloodline you bound yourself to in both word and deed? Your and my ancestors were listening and watching the entire time and they are not pleased.

When did your fear of God and karma end—when you saw me grown into full woman, said the two syllables of my name like a prayer, remembered who I was to you that one sun drenched summer all those years ago?

Catholic schools taught me to turn the other cheek.

My parents raised me up to be a proper lady.

But I renounced the Catholic Church long ago.

And I’ve always had a bit of tomboy in me.

This is the problem with pissing off the quiet, nerdy, laid back women…once we allow ourselves to get angry time doesn’t heal our wounds. & every day I become more enraged.

Aint no amount of cranes in the sky or mantras or singing bowls or pushing and pulling on my energy while we’re asleep or awake that can fix this, ho. You were the one who declared to God that we are tethered…

I told “you” this when you asked me to explain the fundamental difference between you and me. You lie to protect the feelings of those around you. I tell the truth to make people face themselves and their feelings. That woman who read us told you the same. Did you think everything we studied together was a game?

To someone whose entire life is a lie the truth can be a foreign concept. Ironic how you always debated me on the definition of truth when it was you who needed the lesson the most.

And on a lovers and friends tip I told “you” your lies would destroy all that remained innocent within you but you pretended not to hear or understand. “You” destroyed my last bit of my innocence too, when it was not yours for the taking.

Guess we both thought we could overcome our true natures. “You” didn’t though, so why should I?

-You