Vent 12/9/24

In the course of the last few months I’ve been manipulated, gaslit, neglected, and abandoned by the person who was supposed to have my back. To be coughing up blood begging for care and help I get told “I’ll be there at 1:30AM” since lately work has been > over myself and out animals.. what am I to do? About this apartment? Our storage? The memories, the plans we shared? The animals we call our babies? Was it nothing to you? That would lie to me clear as day to my face over the FaceTime call at 11Pm. I can’t do this anymore, I can’t allow the person I “love” get away with this, I can’t allow myself to be casted aside anymore. I’m done, I’m standing up despite being scared shitless, can’t feel anymore alone than I do now since I have nothing and no one left. What do I have to lose you? You’ve checked out months ago and I was too naive and depressed to see the red flags. I’m the biggest joke.