My heart is my enemy

It makes me feel, it makes me care

But I don't want to care anymore.

I don't want to love you anymore.

I can't fall for you.

I can't be that girl who falls in loves her best friend

Especially after turning you down,

After turning you away,

After telling you, no.

But here I am

Too scared to make a move,

Too scared to have you turn me down the way I turned you down

It's not knowing how you feel that makes me insecure

I hide my feelings

I hide my heart

You tried to give me everything

and I gave you nothing back

I couldn't give you my love

I couldn't give you my smile

Now it's me with the secret

It's me with my heart dangling precariously close to the edge

It's me too scared to do anything but wait

Wait until I fall out of love with you

Why can't falling out of love be as easy as falling in love?

Why can't this secret of the heart fade

Why can't this be nothing

Why can't we go back

To before when things weren't complicated