Suicide
I really truly can't deal with so much pain.
They say it's temporarily that'll pass like the seasons
But it's not seasons
They're years of overwhelming sadness that I dont know how much my heart will take
It feels like a never ending cycle
When will it just stop ?
& why in the world does it have feel so suffocating to the point you can't breath or see
because your vision keeps on blurring from the endless sobs and tears your body is releasing
Or sometimes you just can't cry and it's so numbingly scary to intoxicate yourself but never releasing the toxins.
They just stay in your body building up till you have a total breakdown and My God does it feel horrifying & you can't stop crying and sadest part is
deep down you know why but your not ready to admit that this is it . Never more nothing less
But please if there's hope like they say there is come my way soon I don't know how much longer I could do this