Emotions.

     I have always hated it when I couldn't find out the why. Why do things happen? Why was I born in winter? All those stupid questions I just couldn't find out. But, the one thing I've always pushed away was when somebody cares and there just isn't a logical reason why they would, they just do. So, I push them away. I just don't understand why people would just care without an expectation of something from me... honest to God, it scares me. And I push the things that scare me away. Instantly.