Many parents

I am addiction's child. Pain's child, fear's child, anger's child, hatred's child, and even insanity's child. I have many parents,  and they each guide me closer to being one of them. I could be gluttony, wrath, or even apathy. Lust beckons me towards Greed. Envy says I will never have all that I need.  Sloth lays me to bed,  and Rage wakes me up again.  It feels like this life will never end.  I have no more goodness to mend. I am broken into fine sand grain pieces. I am wasted, all my potential flushed by my stubborn stupid nature.  I do not know how to fix myself, nor anyone else.  I am useless, and horrible. She cannot use me anymore,  I'm too damaged.