A secret place l like to hid

A secret place I like to hid

Spent all this time

escaping overwhelmed

mysterious horror film

swear if you took

a moment to hear of his

mind full of weariness

carelessness . trickery

voices of the enemy

mixed with energies

makes sorcery

Their world I am spiralling

out of control

to seeing not how those around

picture me

bound by chains

wrapping around

be my own disowning choices

to cease and confront voice

toying with my fears

not once controlling

on the hunt, they steadily growing

well no one is paying any mind

to never knowing

how deep I've lost myself

in a psyche with many places to hid

where in time

many died crying

to realise, this place is lost

fades of black and white

pictures, become harder to grasp

the closer you look

reveals a forgotten past

steering from far away

easily waved towards ashtrays ways

repeated over time

always has a way to reply

feelings of walking cautiously

down dark hallways

seeking your way back to your room

only to forgetting which

door you walked through

the creak's & cracks echo

you snap back letting go of what

you know - time stops

consciousness shocked

an electric volt

just as the sound of a locking

dead bolt bits hard

cuts throat

and becomes more dark to fall apart

pounding heart

to adjust hard to the dark

you even start to

visualise flying sparks

of light

only to question if you took a sight of something

or is it your mind in fright created from dark nights

we forgot we were once not alike

light is fading remembrance

while maintaining a fading presence

in a present environment denying

any light fully lighting any dim

some spark from whims of power

surges of strength have been cracked &

rewired to be empty , waiting & wanting

someone to turn the switch on but when they do

it's too bright! 

Why?