Jealousy is such a rotten enemy

This feeling constantly telling me I'm hurt

& to hurt anyone taking what I love

Or who attempt to play me

It's a shame to feel insecure or 

You're being punked

A sucka getting punched by another fucker

pussy caring who

get his lady taken by another

Fuck her!

Even if I love her

Treat her like a slut just

like any girl I catch on the fly by

given me that dark eye 

moving that body to rhythms

telling me it's happening tonight, right

step it up come gets some

I'm a player who knows

when a lady is ready she'll come get some

loving my dreams

comes in between

the means of

a fine line & loving

what seems to be the fix

which tricks me

hits me between the eyes

like a magician & his many

tricks up the sleeve

never to believe

in its quick fix, it hits the spot which is burning

in hot flames of fire coming from hell that

only sheds light on the abyss

left to be returned

this is my warning

I'm at my might

at my life & it may just bite

those who were sent in with venom

it's on them & what they hold within them, Yes

These women who at once couldn't live without

Or with him,

Now they participate in a ritual made to break by the slightest mistakes

When away I can't wait to be taken away, 

They are my escape

From the everyday ways of being a slave

I choose to run with them to the end of days,

Cause: really in truth they are the ones who will give me what I need to gain peace

& finding love is what I need before I see myself deceased

I preached & reached the depths below

Hoping to not give away bits of my soul 

but to learn what it means to love & let go

By walking away before the final showdown 

That we call to see before it starts to blow

I can't help, though! 

It's just who I am , & to be a man 

I've come this far & have to find love in the dark,

but it's there & only there that I could then love myself & 

those who played a part

Sent out in the world with many tests to deliver this testimony

Remembering no one owes me nothing 

So I should find I'm blessed even more when I rest from my life of suffering

To know what it means to reach the light at dawn

After surviving what is knows as the Dark Night Of Soul

I've thrived by staying high & fighting to find life 

Only to find it when I found myself dying,

Love is to die for , & I adore you from the moment you walked in my life

You were my Angel but by inviting you in my life what have I invited really 

Will it be Death or Will it be Life? 

The Other Me

Caught in between

Enemy lines

The other me

Yeah the other guy

In another disguise

Telling me rise

Selling me a prize

If I could only be

Better than them other guys

Then I be totally fine

What is at my side?

Constantly whispering 

Filling me with pride

It's still alive

Cause it's afraid to die

Maybe I want to keep it alive

For some reason

I'm no more questioning why

I'm just along for the ride

Now seeking

What shall I find?

That I'm totally helpless

No, one to tell this to

Deep down that I've really given up on life

Can you feel this?

As I no longer can conceal it

Let it be the light that reveals

All that's real or will

It takes someone to kill this

To express just how real

This really is

Power's that be

Who holds the key

To the holy grail

Every step we take

Leads us to heaven or hell

They usually depend on your view of self

The wisdom for me and you

Would be to look with thyself

This is the riches 

a wealthy man can find

But many end up killing themselves

Cause they get lost and fall behind

My I remind you

It's all right

I'm here to remind you

It will be alright 

A new me can be drawn

And walk across - upon

The grace and mercy

Given to those who

Express humbly they are close to being done or gone 

find themselves lost to the cross, 

His cost has been cast to cast lots

All across those who are so far back

They may feel they can't back

We meet again at the crossroads

Inches away from a set trap

As I see it's time to be me

I love you and hope to give you this key

To be what you truly

Want to be and trust me

I've seen the beauty my

Hope is you show it and remember

You knew me

For one who- lead without

A sun- with the one

I believe called us to be one

The father says to me

This is your eternity!

The feeling which sways within

Stop running and give him

All you feel needs to free

No longer dark behind eyes

Now you're given the gift to see

You're the miracle in me!

Coming out this hole,

This dark, dark hole,

By learning to let go of the past,

Which is just that, the past, 

and live for today!

We can enjoy the moments

Sit back, relax and laugh

While we still continue to pray

We only get one day,

Make is last 

in this Present, Moment 

so be thankful , We never own it

Only hope is to see the lesson,

Don't worry about tomorrow

Cause today is a blessing! 

Even though their has been too much sorrow,

No need to drag it into tomorrow,

By accepting then awakening with action

Overthrow the tedious testings,

I see now are only overcome where I been slipping,

Will only learned & overcame by faith

which we continue manifesting

Every single day

This revelation

Has me turned around has

Empowered me to step into a new day.

Giving me the power to lead instead of follow

To earn instead to steal or borrow,

Bless be to God for his grace is forever great!

Till the end of our days.

May we praise his mercies,

Though we may fall astray,

Becoming lost souls at the crossroads,

Once we listen to what the prophets foretold,

We can hold on to the heavens that only our hearts hold,

Be bold, dream big, let go, go slow, take risks, be brave, live for today,

Creating what we desire,

We awaken to the shift that plays the tunes 

With those guides who continue to fly higher!

Fallen for you

like I fallen from the sky

I have fallen from the truth

I have fallen from being high

I have fallen because that's what I do

I'm a fallen angel

You fell in love with too

Love is a mystery

beating vibrations

tracing back history

what did I mean to you

if you just erased me

and all the things I've done for you

Love is not replaceable

the crude world it seems

when fate takes

what was meant for you

we all fall from grace

hoping to find the truth

the truth is in the palm of your hands

but how could you really know

unless we experienced

the fall of man

my wings were burned

when it was our time

to serve- but I rebuilt them

with every breath & conscious word heard

it's never too far from the tree

when you see a shooting star

Remember Me

I've fallen into the deep unknown

only to find a LOVE

I now won't ever let go

it's through doors

wars and open sores

we interject

it's just my crazy mission

my side project

to put the pieces

that I found

shattered in the hour glass

replacing the present

near future

by exposing the past

I laugh now

cause seeing how

I grasp this view

it isn't as bad

since I now have

the ultimate truth

of why we do what we do 

The Little Children

To be a child

Means to grow up

To be grown up

Means to own up

Not child like

You find it hard

To see the light

Fight to gain sight

Fight to gain approval

Of who is wrong or right

Out of sight

Out of mind

Only to sit in the next room

Feeling the same way

So we learned to hide

Not to confront or erupt personal issues

Daddy's not around

Mom misses him not you

I've witnessed the ignorance

Deny to watch guilt drill them

No chance to really feel them

They the living die

Slowly killing him, her &

Them; all the works

Of love above 

Only hurt from below from being cut off

Disconnection, separation , eternal isolation

is this what we want for the little children?

for every missing piece is a child not in peace 

I'm finding the pieces in the  rising fires 

of hells kitchen, 

I've come to share with you a word or two

Never back down, give in or accept unconfirmed questions

as final say for the little children 

Never explain why or change

just to fit in- 

fight for what is pressed on your heart

even though you may have only seen the dark

believe and know there is a light within you

awaiting activation 

life struggles and cycles But nothing changes 

till one dies to find inner awakening 

Reminds me of my many nights

I watch as no one gave any eye

the little children were just left forsaken 

A secret place I like to hid

Spent all this time

escaping overwhelmed

mysterious horror film

swear if you took

a moment to hear of his

mind full of weariness

carelessness . trickery

voices of the enemy

mixed with energies

makes sorcery

Their world I am spiralling

out of control

to seeing not how those around

picture me

bound by chains

wrapping around

be my own disowning choices

to cease and confront voice

toying with my fears

not once controlling

on the hunt, they steadily growing

well no one is paying any mind

to never knowing

how deep I've lost myself

in a psyche with many places to hid

where in time

many died crying

to realise, this place is lost

fades of black and white

pictures, become harder to grasp

the closer you look

reveals a forgotten past

steering from far away

easily waved towards ashtrays ways

repeated over time

always has a way to reply

feelings of walking cautiously

down dark hallways

seeking your way back to your room

only to forgetting which

door you walked through

the creak's & cracks echo

you snap back letting go of what

you know - time stops

consciousness shocked

an electric volt

just as the sound of a locking

dead bolt bits hard

cuts throat

and becomes more dark to fall apart

pounding heart

to adjust hard to the dark

you even start to

visualise flying sparks

of light

only to question if you took a sight of something

or is it your mind in fright created from dark nights

we forgot we were once not alike

light is fading remembrance

while maintaining a fading presence

in a present environment denying

any light fully lighting any dim

some spark from whims of power

surges of strength have been cracked &

rewired to be empty , waiting & wanting

someone to turn the switch on but when they do

it's too bright! 

Why?

A few still shine-Gold Souls

I'm placed around them to guide

If they alone choose to accept

push, pull or reject, its still alright

I know what it's like, to be stubborn

It turns on you and will for sure burn

earn your wings here in hell

by never telling yourself

how you really feel

like it or not

our expression is the remedy

to overthrow the enemy of oppression

all these gifts of inspiration

has any of it sparked even a little

Internal revelation?

If so why you still waiting

breakdown to be found

The Lord promised

you're never alone

or

left to be forsaken

Part of your soul

deeply needed to be discovered

you wonder why it is you go under

deep the pain hurts

it works its way to shape and mold

you fold to be told to be bold

your pave the road

nobody really knows

the hole in your soul

till the pain starts to swoll & swoll

you struggle to let it go

the answers are behind your

inner door

this war I can't afford

to be told , No

I had to feel

too see

the pain the need

where it cuts it bleeds

why I erupt with broken

love & trust

I see - i been touched so deep

It's been hard to sleep

 had to go to know it

I who meets my beholder

the one who reaps

I reach to hand over

in exchange peace for

a piece of my soul.

My soul so far

below I go

I know

I can let go

I show myself to

the door

no longer do I need to Fight

this inner war

I reached the center

of all,  I AM

I AM LOVE

I AM PEACE

I AM A child of God

I AM TRUTH

I AM FREE

I AM LOVE

Instant attraction

destined by stars

high above: interacting

intergalactic shit

meant to happen

lessons stressed to be observed

till realised 

if haven't yet seen

we yet to be burned

even though by the light

it will be alright

no harm given

no harm done

besides, lives we deny

of lives were living

cry now baby

let them tears fall

of all the fears you never been comfortable with 

or felt at all

so it's never been dealt with

& the love you get

cannot be taken

it's only a gift

we hope to not forsake

after our hearts

are torn again!!