pain is everything

I prefer extravagant death and fear the Lord.

I don't believe in fear or what I'm afraid of

  because everything is terrifying.

I talk to nothing because it listens well.

I stare into oblivion because It’s the only way I can see you.

I write to keep demons out of my head.

I bang my head to invite the pain.

I suffer to live.

I live to find new meaning.

In finding new meaning I found I never had one.

I have fun in meaninglessness,

I find joy in nothing,

I'm nothing until I'm everything,

I prefer my mind to your reality