Weak

So tired

Too weak

Again I set down the pills

Tears streaming down my cheeks

I close my eyes

Enjoy a moment of bliss

A moment

Where I find reason to live

A moment

When I can see that I should not die

A moment

That stops me

From taking my own life

But then

Itʼs gone

Ruined by me

From opening my eyes

Iʼm back to reality

Back to wanting to die

Iʼm back to the pain

Back to everything being the same

Back to being too weak

To put myself to sleep

Because no matter how hard I try

I cannot forget what it is like

To want to be

Alive