Will you be my only unspoken truth ?

And me yours ?

Tucked down by rules and regulations

Buried by expectations

Placed between

award-winning facades and social standards

Peer pressure and what people think of us.

Will you only call on me

Behind close doors and tiny spaces ?

Will you only need me

When no ones watching ?

Will I only be held

In my final moments

Breathing shallowly in between dying heart beats

Beeping monitors and running cables.

Intended to be nothing more than a fleeting notion

and bitter sweet memories.

Maybe in a different lifetime

In a different timeline

Just maybe we

Would meet in different circumstances

Where the end begins in echoes

Where your world is me

And your world is me....

Now...

It's just moments and it seconds it all disappears

Dissipates into space and time

Never meant to be more

Than just mere moments

I never thought

I would find

Love in your big brown eyes

Comfort in your touch

Strength in your words

Laughter in your jokes

I wonder if meeting you was

Inevitable

There is honor in the way you wear

Your pain

I see you

Beyond your flesh

Under all the hardy exterior

I see you

And boy you are the embodiment of

Just magnificent

Every scar every mole

Perfectly placed

Like stars aligned

Forming constellations

You write about them in your words

You recite them in deep poetry

You draw them in your world

In your lines and curves

They live in every brush stroke

Every dark shade representing

The endless dark days

The bright colors of burning ambers

Representing the blissful moments

What a beautiful life it was

Long drives and peaceful nights

My hands tracing your every outline

Me consumed by everything you

A blissful life that once was

Is now framed in antique wood

Living in the halls of dusty museum

That's only graced upon

Once in a blue moon.

Love is such a powerful force

But sometimes it's risking everything

Just to experience it once

And just like that

I risked it all

And just like that...

You became a reminder of

How hard

How deep

People fall in love

And with great love

Sometimes comes great sacrifice

Heavy losses and hard goodbyes

Just like that..

You were once my great love ....

You'll always be my favorite hello

And hardest goodbye

You will always be that memory

That hits hard at the bottom of every bottle

That hint of bitterness with each burning cigarette

That constant agonizing reminder that tomorrow is..

Another day without you

But through my pain and lost

You're also a constant reminder of

Strength and power that comes

With a broken heart

You'll live on as memories made with the moments we had

You'll always be my written truth

In the lines of poems

I write and recite

In the strokes of my brushes

You'll always be

My forever muse

and for that I thank you....