A Delayed
we were waiting on the same line
and then we were staring at each other
but then we both turned away
and so on like that
making our souls flattering
we walked side by side
but we didn't even spare a single smile
we didn't even look at each other
only our footsteps that can be heared
later we heard people in our back talking
something about, "a delayed".
we both have no idea what it is
but we sure it's something that upset us
he even run away
leaving me
but did he?
actually it hurts me too
i don't know why but it hurts to see the difference of us
but when in the quiet place we met
we smile at each other
we even did small talk
laughing until our stomach hurts
because in the quiet place
there's no people
especially the one who talk about 'a delayed."
myself burn
when i see you
smiling and talking
with another girl
and then i thought,"did you actually do the same thing like me?"
after a long thought
i realized that after all this time i'm not that sure what you act towards me
is it because you and i are do the same
or is it because a delayed that people are talking about?
and i realized "a delayed" that people are talking means
it is the people itself
that makes the space for us
that makes the change of us
that makes us got delayed
I Gone, You Free.
is it because i think about you all the time and you start getting sick of me?
is it because i fangirl over you because you're there?
is it because my appearance bad enough for your type?
is it because my acts towards you that makes you uncomfortable?
and...
is it because i love you that you hate me?
and that's the thing that makes you start to walk away and torn me into pieces? because you feel fed up with me?
i'm sorry for making you uncomfortable...
i just meant to make me happy, at least you respect me it's all that enough. but i guess, i'm just too selfish just thingking about me but not thingking about you.
now i realized what i've done either what you've done.
this is all useless,
this is all wasting time,
and..
i'm sorry for messing it up from the first time and making myself wrecked by myself past you.
sounds kind of confusing, but that's the way it is.
and so i choose to learn to pick myself up, and walking away from your presence so you can do whatever you want to do with me.
because i'm not gonna give a single care at all.
because how come i care with something else while myself are the one who really need to be care with?
now you can be happy,
because you didn't have to hate me again because you feel abhorrent with me
you didn't have to broke me into pieces anymore.
yet i don't care either if you still do, because maybe you think it's your pleasure thing to do.
but i'm not gonna broken anyway,
i'm not gonna disturbing you anymore,
because like i said i'm not gonna give a single care about you.
i gone. you free.