I’m calling.. Hello?
I call your name, what seems to be a thousand times
but I called a thousand times too many
every call went to voicemail, as if i was calling you on the phone
after awhile I began to think that you were imaginary,
that i made us up in my head
but then I saw you one day and I gave you one last call
and when you didn’t answer
I finally understood the answer all along
Afraid
I am afraid to love again
I am afraid to share myself with someone again
Opening up has became my number one fear,
When i used to freely let people in
Once you have been broken by someone who you deeply trusted and loved
You will eventually see life in a different perspective
You will be petrified to give your heart to someone
No matter what they promise
Friends nor Lovers
No one ever stays as long as promised
A day
There will be a day where I won’t have to write my poetry because of you, because you have made me feel as low as low could go,
There will be a day where I won’t look at something familiar, and automatically connect it with you,
There will be a day where I won’t feel as lost as i do because i’m without you,
I strive for the day where I finally put myself first, where myself is finally enough for me
Falling
it’s hard to sit there and watch the person you love,
fall in love with someone else
it’s hard to see them move on, while you’re still stuck
the world keeps moving but your still holding on,
spacing off because you have no idea what to do next, wasting time thinking they’re coming back,
but you realize they are not
you’re hurt and they think that’s okay
Vulnerability.
If I had to use a word to describe how you made me feel
Vulnerability would be my top choice
You made me feel like a Sunflower in a field of Lilacs
You shut me out, now you’re gone
I felt lonely in the days I was surround by the ones who loved me most
and felt loved in the days where there was no one but myself and my thoughts
where there was nothing left to do but let them take over me until i realized the monster you have made
“YOU”
I have your name memorized, as if your name was the answer to every question on a test
I hear your name and i immediately turn around to see if it’s you being called
You have managed to get yourself trapped inside my thoughts, even if it’s been months since you’ve gone
Everything I hate, has turned into you, so i’m forced to love it
I no longer think about the things i used too
Now i’m stuck on one thing and it’s all about you
#you #youwereoncemyeverything