Three Things He Could Never Tell Her
The sun was smiling down at us, yet the atmosphere over the church was a thick grey cloud. I am positive that if I gathered all the tear drops beneath this roof that I would be able to fill a fish tank,for sharks. Friends, friends of friends and family members, even the ones I assumed were my great ancestors gathered here for him.
Of all the faces in this rooms, mines stood out like a sore thumb, because in a room filled with sorrow I was the only one smiling. "He's so strong," they whispered, " he is smiling to hide the pain," they assumed. Yeah, the pain of all this jubilation that lied in the pit of my stomach. He's dead, out of the way. The priest nodded at me, cuing me tht it was my turn to give a 'heartfelt speech.' I had no choice but to evoke feelings that were never there in the first place.
"My beloved twin brother...I'll miss you," not. I still had to see him when I go to hell for my crime.However, it was worth it. As I made my way down the alter, the sympathetic priest gave me a pat on my shoulder "sorry for your loss.." I'm not . Suddenly, my ears twitched from the loud sounds of sobbing, it came from behind the beige wooden door.
I gave the priest a small nod before nimbling towards the weeping sounds,like dummy under a spell. When I saw the person who was crying,my body tense and my heart rate sped. It became almost impossible to speak,but I calmed myself down and invited myself to sit near her. Abruptly, she wrapped her arms around my snf nudged her head against the nape of my neck.
My heart panged, I wanted this, so why is rage interrupting my happiness ? Then she said it "I couldn't stay and look at his face...it looked..so deflated.." the jackhammer. "..So disoriented,like he was melting..." the acid. "That couln't be my Dave!" Oh, that is why I was furious. He was still her Dave, just like she was still his Crystal.
I stood up,causing her arms to untangle from around me before I stomped towards the car. If all this was for nothing, then she could never find out. She could never find out that I loved her way more than him. She could never find out that I was the one she told "I love you" to that night. Most of all, she can never find out that I killed my own twin brother for her.
The Silence Woke Her
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The Silence woke her, no matter how many times her body twisted and turned to cradle her to sleep, the silence deprived her of dreaming. It was not the first time, or would it be the last that the tranquility of the night forced herto get up. As she trudged her tedious body towards the medicine cabinet, she was tempted to yank her hair out with frustration.
She was a zombie;lifeless and slow in movement, but most of all, that human glo she had completely vanished. Her face twisted with a scowl as the horrific image in the mirror stared back at her. Her eyes were a pair of empty pools and beanth them were sagging bags that looked like a neon sign for sleepless nights. Before she could terrorize herself any further, she quickly opened her medicine cabinet and tossed three sleeping pills down her parched throat.
She hoped that one day she would overdose on those pills she consumed like dinner. However, death did not look so bad,at least she would get some rest there. It had to be better than this torment. It would be better than this battle she lost every night. While sitting in the balcony of her apartment,her restless legs shifted, sudden agitation urged them to move. Her body was reminding her that she was not allowed to sleep. Her disorder clung to her,like a tick to a dog. "You're not allowed to sleep" said insomia,mocking her as her eyes fought to stay open.
The Hypocrite
You say one thing,but do another,
Talking to people like you, I wouldn’t bother,
With your two sided personality...
Just pick one,
Give me some clarity.
Is that your real personality ?
Or maybe it’s the fake.
You’re an actress,
A talented one, that you are.
It never seems tiring for you,
Playing both sides like a coin.
You can flip the script so easily,
But I guess that’s what actresses do.
The things you say and do don’t add up.
All this nonsens you’re saying, can you just stop!?
You’re so fake!
Might as well drown the real you in a lake.
I like your real smile,but I haven’t seen that in a while.
I guess the fake one is more your style.