" Everything is happen with a reason.You will learn sooner or later that what you wish now may come true, but be prepared when will happen, to answer to a simple question : is really what you wish or wait for? "

Red lights, a pole dancer and some vodka made me thought that this can be my new house of sin.But I forget how the night life feel...is more than fun and money.There are stories between the fake smile and empty eyes.I was once one of them and now, I come to see them like I used to be : confuse.Maybe because was my birthday I chose to return kindness in a place where all you can see is darkness.First step made my heart beat faster and maybe was a sign to run as far away as possible.The person I was with knew the place, he went here when needed a girl to spend the night only drinking and speaking, but I know is more : those hungry eyes which wants to undress you just because you're there trying to make your life easier .He and all of them judge you, but not tonight, dear blonde girl, tonight I will be here ready to understand between the lines and silent screams.

- She is the girl for which Tom has left you.

I was shocked.I knew that she left because If she hadn't, we wouldn't been together now.I remember when he cheat on me...was the moment when I quit doing what she is doing right now because of him, the moment when everything was fine until one night spending in the streaptease club .Then, I wanted so much to meet with her, to tell her I hate that she was stolen everything that I ever loved and beg her to give me back my breathe.Now, I'm sitting next to her and listen how she is speaking about their past.I closed my eyes and tell her to listen to me.

-Was hard to know he was with you and stay with me in the same time just because I love him or because you left .When was his time to leave too, he found out you have a boyfriend.I received him and in my arms complained about women.I want you to know I'm not angry, I don't judge you and I thank you for trying to make him a better man.In the past I was too blind to see he loves nobody, I was trying to find excuses, but knowing you now I realise you were in my shoes too.

After this, I hug her.I hug her with all my lost power that I kept inside, I hug the second girl who loved the same man like me and quit soon enough until to destroy her.She didn't stole him from me, he let this happened because...a man who has nothing in his soul is a man who has nothing to lose.Only love and that, my readers, is a cheap thing you can buy with lies.

I think I've made a mistake thinking I will do this trip around the world without any regret.Until now, i visited only a few places that I could never call them home.And again I put out and put in all my stuff like my broken pieces of my soul.Is so tired when I arrive from a journey, it needs time to heal the empty holes which once were full of joy and love.In every place I've been through , I put a little me in it.But I know will be a time....when this long journey of descover myself and true love everybody speak about, will have an end.And then, I will lay in your arms, dear travel man...because I know both of us will be so tired of walking on different roads and never fell like we reach the point of the journey.

#longjourney

I'm still 7682 km away from him.He called me with fear in his voice and told me " I'm here...i will found out if i still have cancer".I was scared and with tears in my eyes, i give him strenght to go in that room where one year ago he was fighting with the ill.I pray all the night for him and finally he said "I won the battle"...i was the only person who was there for him , even we might not see each other again.( true story)