i am a cloudburst away
fawning over
this intrusive
morning
squandering
golden claims
while remanded
by midnights
canicular hailstorm.
and that lingering feeling,
that trigger-breath
supernova
of augury,
dampens
my palms
and awakens
an erratic
fluttering,
disrupting
my darken
chambers
imperils me.
i gaze vacantly,
my heterochromia gaze
unflinching
to the electrodes
amplifying
the hum of white noise
as that moment-
that damning
strip of translucent image
projects itself
upon the quelling
atmosphere,
swathing me.
mockingly,
Glory's honor
illuminates
repurposing
my indifference,
immortalizing.
but i exist,
disappointing you
in a variety of silence.
under the acrid,
burnt odor,
i compress,
substandardly,
i condense
until malfunctioning,
exposing me to you.
©️Meg. October 31. 2021
Photo credit: allpoetry.com
your name returns home
i cannot sleep
in this abrasive atmosphere.
lightning tunnels,
flames within my veins,
this tempest night spent
clawing at the ceiling.
cleansing harmonic rain-bath,
persistently prickling
of orphaned teardrops
pelts the pavement
reminding me of
the sound of the cathedral
tolling, wisps of sinful prayers
and your name returns home,
blaming the stars motive
and the moon's ambition.
in silvered silence,
guiding through the lace
while saintly guilt
slips on glass beads
the metallic flavor lasting
on my tongue, anxious to
prevent dawn from spilling
down muted eggshell walls.
©️ Meg. October 11. 2021
a life cycle of Saturdays
"When one burns one's bridges, what a very nice fire it makes." Dylan Thomas
and it should bother me
how i find comfort in these conversations,
burrowed in those silent stretches
thrumming your heart,
each battered beat
begging me to follow
foully, humming your farewells
since you were too busy to articulate
and i, the apathetic audience,
neglected to attend that Saturday.
perversely, strumming my calloused ink stained tips
along the length of lit paper star garland,
perplexing origami folds
and creases our wedding vows
and all that comes to mind is
i want to drizzle it in kerosene
to see those shooting stars
from auld lang syne,
when we laid in the dew dipped meadow
beyond your grandfather's barn
in that quixotic state of Saturday Matins,
where the fireflies veiled us in
under the meteor shower.
but those betraying fireflies!
now complacent as this winters lake,
a tormenting mirror pane
that blinds a white knight,
thwarting heroism for
the suffocating breathy voice
of Hyacinth's choking pleads
from your chloronic wake.
and i should be bothered
standing alone on the veranda
strumming the splintered banister
you promised to replace one Saturday
but Saturday elapsed.
no longer humming our dolorous hymn,
i composed a satirical threnody last Saturday,
and it received glowing reviews
and i thought of those shooting stars
betraying us with their dust
but those short-lived trails we lived
burned out and all that comes to mind is
i'm within a matchsticks striking distance.
©️ Meg. January 2, 2021.
soiled & sore
"I am always with myself,
and it is I who am my tormentor."
- Leo Tolstoy
with stiffened fingers
you push your gin around
the ache you feel
won't drown
this troubled cloudy mood
condensed, still thickening
it's hard to let the sunlight in
and when your mud caked boots
grew roots downward
through scarred laminate flooring
you sipped your gin
deeper, deeper your roots progressed
questing for anchorage
but I can't grasp onto anything
I reach upwards for your ankles
to pull me through
... I can't keep this fight going...
and my muddy fingers turn raw
grasping for a trapdoor
to any place but this world
gin drops rain
and the slick soil swallows
... I know I'm losing my mind...
with ripped fingertips
I swirl my gin and sniff
the aroma of ammonia saturates
thickens and condenses around me
sipping my gin
i close my eyes and grin,
the taste of Christmas
fills me once again.
©️Meg. December 2, 2020.
the kindness of strangers
"C-Can you h-help me, p-please?"
hushed-stuttered voice breaks her concentration. Shaggy coal hair- concern outlines his reflective Aviators. She's looking at herself. Timid smile retreats at his stretched grin.
"I-I was w-walking my dog w-when he took o-off after s-squirrel." Stuttering, he reenacted.
Worry fluttering, she surveys. Bustling park- walkers, bicyclists, playground.
"W-won't you p-please h-help me?"
*****
Coughing fit abruptly wakes her. Dried emerald eyes flush tears. Struggling to sit, heaviness tightens at her ankle. Stale smoke and mildew assail her as she regulates her breathing.
Focus.
Salmon walls. Cluttered white-chipped dresser. Antique vanity below loft bed. Perched in umbra, tangled matted ash hair shutters grey eyes. Filth splotches pallid face, frail arms, in drab dress. Strangling scent of rot.
"Didn't your parents teach you not to talk to strangers?"
©️ Meg. June 2. 2020
winterberry Christmas gown
scuffed
and
slightly
dented,
Sharpie
scribbles
dried-
heavy in
hand
velvet
winterberry
Christmas
gown
with black
patent leather
mary janes
tissue
wrapped
ornament,
"Baby's First Christmas"
your name
"Holly"
engraved.
price tags
tucked,
delicately
preserved,
laid to rest
-cardboard
crypt.
©️ Meg. May 7, 2020
a tableau of abstract expressionism
i.
lamming across
the rotting
fissuring
forest floor
calloused
torn soles
bruising
dampen soil
as cannonade
cotes me among
the Krumholtz
of the timberline.
ii.
in the frigid
alpine air-
aching bones
gnarled, as
overwrought
nerves crackle-
live power lines.
fierce
high-pitched
wails warn
rolled clouds
of amaranthine wool
announces
a tableau of
abstract
expressionism.
iii.
madders'
hanging silhouette-
soundlessly
screaming
at me.
his grip
entangled
black beaded
rosary,
worn leather
missal
rests upon
folded
suit coat.
gold coins
litter
beneath
his frame.
tear-dirt
streaks
along my
windburn
cheeks
trembling,
raking
matted hair
while my
muffled mind
gurgles up
lunacy
as his name
dries
upon my
lips.
iiii.
spinning
gold coins'
integrity,
patronizing
probability-
rusty
decadence
slicing
lucks' frame.
-gasping,
lurching
upright
night sweats
in summer's
humidity
crickets chirp
incessantly.
© Meg. May 7, 2020.
Athenaeum
walled-in
skinned
slumped
spines
humanity
sans flesh
roles
genius
and gallantry
veins
kettle stitch
to kettle stitch
monstrosities
and varlets
punched
parchment
damsels
and dames
compressed
restrained
enchantment
wilting
along
for edges
labored
works
of merit
and impurities
suffering
austerity
conscious
deprivation
under the
drippings of
a candelabra
chandelier
from an
amethyst plush
gold gilded
chair
a raconteur
murmurs
of a recalcitrant
athenaeum.
©️Meg. May 3, 2020.
Picture prompt credit https://www.deviantart.com/c17508/art/gothic-library-195478804