Dear Attention,

I mistake you for love often

Is it that your a form of love

Or a trick.

You hurt people by tricking them

You hurt me

You caught me in the web

That is inescapable

I love you but you hurt

You bruise me every day

You make me want to rip my heart out

I do love you

But thats unhealthy

You tear me apart before i can escape

You break my walls

Its impossible to escape you but

Your not love

Your the toxic friend love has

Your what makes heartbreaks

Your why people get broken.

I love you, but goodbye attention.

WifeyMaterial<33

My life you took

And i will not stay

You stole my lights

You stole my heart

For i cannot see in the dark

You took that light

I barely had and was fallen

Without you in my path

Your in my shadows

Yet your not so near

For i will not be stolen from with him near.

The one who had some extra light

And actually put up fight

Now i have a working heart with some lights

Now its never night

But i will shed some light

The light that falls with my tears

The light ill never hold near

You placed my tears in a jar

Just so i wouldnt get far

You made me chase you till i couldnt anymore

And left me broken on the floor..

WifeyMaterial<33

Kurbis, the nickname you gave me

The nickname i want back..

I know ill never get it back though

Ill never be called it by anyone nd although i miss you

Your better off how you are now..

I know ill miss you the rest of my days

The facetimes will haunt me more than you believe

They'll haunt me like a disease

The disease that takes over everything.

Kurbis, one heart that'll fall

One heart that takes all

You stole my heart and locked it away

Never did i think you would stay

Not when you talked to her.

The one who i lost

Longer before

The one who replaced me like i was nothing

The one who makes me want to ruin

Fall apart without me my dear for i will not be here

But you need to live on, even with me gone.

She happens to break me because i am not first

Yet i have to put up with her

Cry myself a river and drown in my tears

For the end may (not) be near

WifeyMaterial<33

When the blood pools around you

How did it feel?

How did it feel to watch it pool around me

Watch the pain wash over my face before your last moments

Why'd you do it?

Was it to watch me call them?

Or to watch me bleed from above?

Blood, the one substance we both shared

Yet you took it from yourself in my bathroom

The blood stained my bathtub

Forever the stain of my blood..

OUR blood

Now your out of reach from me

I may never see you again..

I may forget you

But our blood will remind me with every scratch, cut, or scrape

The blood that leaks was ours not mine.

Blood is why i hurt.

Blood is what ruins me.

Blood or family?

WifeyMaterial<33

Forget it.

Forget me

You burned my soul along with my heart

Please let me just fall apart.

I want to fall i want to be

But you just wont let me

You wont leave me be

Even when i leave

How can i fall

If you wont let me go

Your hurting my lungs

Your hurting my soul

PLEASE just let me go

I wont be gone forever but you wont let me heal

Even though it hurts more to be trapped

You just dont get that

Im wrapped in the bond

That you wont let go

Im stuck to your soul till YOU let go

Please just let me unfold

I promise i wont leave but i cannot be tied

For i am on a leash

That you hold

You keep me trapped in this cage

And you will abandon me in your wake

How can i fall if i am locked away

To be hidden just to not stay.

WifeyMaterial<33

Will I am sorry that I caused you pain

But I couldn't take the cheating

Or the times you lied

Im sorry your in heaven now

I didn't want that

I couldn't take the pain

The backstabbing

It was too much

I didn't want you gone though

I miss you too much

It hurts.

Why did you have to leave me?

I didn't want you too

I needed you.

Bye-Bye will I love you

Ill Miss you :<

WifeyMaterial<33

Yk I never really understood what love was

Even with you.

You treated me like I was invisible

You never loved me

Yet I still love you.

Is that wrong of me?

Probably

Will that love ever be gone?

No..

You'll never know how much love I have for you

And how much it hurts.

I don't understand what is wrong with me

Or why I still love you

Or why I cry whenever I hear about you

Or talk to you

I'll never know why

But I'll always love you even though I wasn't enough.

You'll forever be my most hurtful love

But I love you for that.

The pain you caused me was addicting..

I'll never be the same but I wouldn't change how it went..

You'll forever hurt me.

Even when I stop talking to you

You'll find a way to hurt me.

Yet I love you for that

Is that bad for me?

That I love the pain you caused me

I Love You, Guy.

WifeyMaterial<33

My brothers

There for me when you weren't

Where were you when I fell

When I was broken.

How was I supposed to replace what you stole.

I wasn't able to with no one.

I was broken for so long

Unfixable

Why would you do that to me?

Did you do it to watch me suffer?

To make my siblings suffer with me?

To have them cry themselves to sleep because they couldn't help me.

To my past loves

Was I ever enough?

Or was I something for you to break and ruin..

Because if so it worked I'm never gonna be the same

I was broken because of you. Your why Sophie doesn't exist.

You killed her forever. thank you.

Goodbye forever my love.

WifeyMaterial<33

Breathe, you told me

You told me to breathe like I wasn't crying for you

You left me broken and I will fix myself

I will fix myself before you can come back.

You told me to breathe

How am I supposed to when my lungs are filled with tears

The tears you filled them with

The last goodbye,

Or was it just a block.

You told me to breathe

Like I could choose too

When I was shattered in a pool of blood

How can I breathe when I cant comfort myself

How do I heal myself?

You told me to breathe

Right after you left

Left without a goodbye

Left me with the memories we had

Memories.. were they fake?

Did you lie to me?

You told me to breathe

Why would you say that when you leaving

Was like a death to me

I wont forget you even though you lied

You'll haunt me the rest of my nights

I'll question what I did when in reality

It was the distance.

You told me to breathe.

Like my lungs could hold the air

My lungs that you stabbed

You tried to stab my soul

But my soul isn't what's broken

My heart is.

You told me to breathe

I'll love you forever

You told me to breathe.

WifeyMaterial<33

Craft a heart

Craft a soul

Soul that heals

Soul that folds

Folds like paper

Folds that shatter

Shatter like glass

Shatter and crash

Crash with the wind

Crash and cuts

Cuts that scar

Cuts and bleed

Bleed to trail

Bleed like storms

Storms that cry

Storms to collapse

Collapse a soul

Collapse a lung

Lung to breathe

Lung that breaks

Breaks and dies

Breaks to forget

Forget your death

Forget my life

Life of meaning

Life that holds

Holds me gently

Holds me high

High above

High in the sky

Sky where you live

Sky where I die

Die to see

Die to remember

Remember where you went

Remember why you left

Left and forgot

Left with no word

Word, a thought unsaid

Word, something of no meaning

Meaning, something you'll never get

Meaning, life of memory

Memory of you

Memory to leave

Leave me

Leave me forever

Forever and gone

Forever to return

Return to me

Return all broken

Broken, like you left me

Broken, where I wont be there to help.

Goodbye.

WifeyMaterial<33