Shelly, a heart of gold

I wish I could have said goodbye

As I watched you leave the sky.

The stars will truly grow

And leave me in the snow

The hearts forever rot

But never at the top

Your heart will slowly sink away

Before I watch myself decay

As the ash rises from the ground

And my soul seeps into the ground

I'll stop thinking about you

I'll lose my thoughts

I'll lose my feelings

You'll vanish

I will too

Not as quickly though

Shelly, i'll miss you.

I'll miss the smell of cats that took over your house

I'll miss my heart

You'll lose your life

I'll lose myself.

-WIFEYMATERIAL<33

How do I make this pain go away?

Its like I'm haunted by your ghost

Why do you haunt me, I did nothing to you

You treat me like a object

Trapped in your walls

Alcohol runs with blood

You cant tell me I'm trash when your worse

You remove my lungs and replace them with nothing

You make me live in a cage where oxygen is replaced with you

All I breathe in is you

I live in a world of fake

People who are true are considered dumb

I'm not dumb.

We're not dumb.

You are.

I'm sorry that you shattered long ago

But its time to move past it

Learn what's real in this world

Stop following fake

Dear Attention,

I mistake you for love often

Is it that your a form of love

Or a trick.

You hurt people by tricking them

You hurt me

You caught me in the web

That is inescapable

I love you but you hurt

You bruise me every day

You make me want to rip my heart out

I do love you

But thats unhealthy

You tear me apart before i can escape

You break my walls

Its impossible to escape you but

Your not love

Your the toxic friend love has

Your what makes heartbreaks

Your why people get broken.

I love you, but goodbye attention.

WifeyMaterial<33

My life you took

And i will not stay

You stole my lights

You stole my heart

For i cannot see in the dark

You took that light

I barely had and was fallen

Without you in my path

Your in my shadows

Yet your not so near

For i will not be stolen from with him near.

The one who had some extra light

And actually put up fight

Now i have a working heart with some lights

Now its never night

But i will shed some light

The light that falls with my tears

The light ill never hold near

You placed my tears in a jar

Just so i wouldnt get far

You made me chase you till i couldnt anymore

And left me broken on the floor..

WifeyMaterial<33

Kurbis, the nickname you gave me

The nickname i want back..

I know ill never get it back though

Ill never be called it by anyone nd although i miss you

Your better off how you are now..

I know ill miss you the rest of my days

The facetimes will haunt me more than you believe

They'll haunt me like a disease

The disease that takes over everything.

Kurbis, one heart that'll fall

One heart that takes all

You stole my heart and locked it away

Never did i think you would stay

Not when you talked to her.

The one who i lost

Longer before

The one who replaced me like i was nothing

The one who makes me want to ruin

Fall apart without me my dear for i will not be here

But you need to live on, even with me gone.

She happens to break me because i am not first

Yet i have to put up with her

Cry myself a river and drown in my tears

For the end may (not) be near

WifeyMaterial<33

When the blood pools around you

How did it feel?

How did it feel to watch it pool around me

Watch the pain wash over my face before your last moments

Why'd you do it?

Was it to watch me call them?

Or to watch me bleed from above?

Blood, the one substance we both shared

Yet you took it from yourself in my bathroom

The blood stained my bathtub

Forever the stain of my blood..

OUR blood

Now your out of reach from me

I may never see you again..

I may forget you

But our blood will remind me with every scratch, cut, or scrape

The blood that leaks was ours not mine.

Blood is why i hurt.

Blood is what ruins me.

Blood or family?

WifeyMaterial<33

Forget it.

Forget me

You burned my soul along with my heart

Please let me just fall apart.

I want to fall i want to be

But you just wont let me

You wont leave me be

Even when i leave

How can i fall

If you wont let me go

Your hurting my lungs

Your hurting my soul

PLEASE just let me go

I wont be gone forever but you wont let me heal

Even though it hurts more to be trapped

You just dont get that

Im wrapped in the bond

That you wont let go

Im stuck to your soul till YOU let go

Please just let me unfold

I promise i wont leave but i cannot be tied

For i am on a leash

That you hold

You keep me trapped in this cage

And you will abandon me in your wake

How can i fall if i am locked away

To be hidden just to not stay.

WifeyMaterial<33

Will I am sorry that I caused you pain

But I couldn't take the cheating

Or the times you lied

Im sorry your in heaven now

I didn't want that

I couldn't take the pain

The backstabbing

It was too much

I didn't want you gone though

I miss you too much

It hurts.

Why did you have to leave me?

I didn't want you too

I needed you.

Bye-Bye will I love you

Ill Miss you :<

WifeyMaterial<33

Yk I never really understood what love was

Even with you.

You treated me like I was invisible

You never loved me

Yet I still love you.

Is that wrong of me?

Probably

Will that love ever be gone?

No..

You'll never know how much love I have for you

And how much it hurts.

I don't understand what is wrong with me

Or why I still love you

Or why I cry whenever I hear about you

Or talk to you

I'll never know why

But I'll always love you even though I wasn't enough.

You'll forever be my most hurtful love

But I love you for that.

The pain you caused me was addicting..

I'll never be the same but I wouldn't change how it went..

You'll forever hurt me.

Even when I stop talking to you

You'll find a way to hurt me.

Yet I love you for that

Is that bad for me?

That I love the pain you caused me

I Love You, Guy.

WifeyMaterial<33

My brothers

There for me when you weren't

Where were you when I fell

When I was broken.

How was I supposed to replace what you stole.

I wasn't able to with no one.

I was broken for so long

Unfixable

Why would you do that to me?

Did you do it to watch me suffer?

To make my siblings suffer with me?

To have them cry themselves to sleep because they couldn't help me.

To my past loves

Was I ever enough?

Or was I something for you to break and ruin..

Because if so it worked I'm never gonna be the same

I was broken because of you. Your why Sophie doesn't exist.

You killed her forever. thank you.

Goodbye forever my love.

WifeyMaterial<33