I am never satisfied ~ My wings

have cried these

many storms before.

My beauty ; The Queen

Her eyes see

the old battles within.

Her wings carry bodies

buried in death

Broken, Weak, and Deceived.

A curse upon her house

and all within

Life of beauty is a Sin.

She'll tell you "Truth".

A new life has begun,

raised in strength

Perturbing mystery indeed

' A symbol ' ' A sign'

It's not without pain or instinct

that I exist so distinctively. Ever changing

(She) The Beauty

The Goddess

The Queen.

Release her of pain with Suffering No More!

Little by Little she found out what life was all about.

Life came at her fast, it was a heavy burdened task. Beautiful Soul attached together in all the wrong ways. Dare anybody be let in. She wanted them to know.

Little by Little she found out what life was all about.

Gave it all she really could. Unfortunately Angels are taken away too soon. Her poor little heart prayed.

A little too late life found out Her Fate Today.

She feels hallow ; Empty inside.

            Her mind often wanders

into the unknown. Some damn place no one would fathom or dare to go.

                 She is numb

                 She feels nothing

And it hurts her like Hell.

Eventually she broke it shattered her dreams her

entire core ROTTING.

Leaving Sorrow, Empty Promises. Lingering Doubt.

The only thing left to offer

             Is nothing.

So don't waste your love on her.

She's the biggest mistake

Love never found.

Broken again. Ripped in two hearts now not beating one.

It's done.

Battle wounds and Wars of love, yet again there was no lover's win.

Bruised to my Core like his

Street Whore

Shhh.... Secrets that may never unfold.

Hearts are meant to be broken

mended and sewn

for many more years to come.

In the course of lovers despair I thought of him, another man.

Leaving unanswered questions in me.

I thought of you again. Often I do. You left my appetite full of regret. But, it was You I loved all along.

Not with Shame of You

Cowardness in me - I let you go knowing my love left with you.

Broken hearted now from a man that will never be you. Or equal in comparison to you the man I left empty hearted.

I'm Regrettably Sorry Friend.

She was a Freethinker

Infidel ; Skeptic

thought she knew it all

her brain in such

Frazzle.

Fray ; Tatter

Exhaust.

What a formless creature.

Shapeless ; Amorphous

such a Forsaken girl.

Renounce ; Reject

Deserted ; Derelict.

A dirty Soul she had to bare.

Soiled ; Begrimmed

Loathsome.

That's all anyone ever always saw of her.

It was just the Discomposure of her Agitation in her Confusion.

To be anything more than a Display an Abstract Exhibit for all a Show to View and Expose.

This letter needs no specifications of a sender or receiver. It is not from me or from you. It could be from anyone. It is not to any one person, but rather to many people. It is to and from every one of our hearts.

Dear Human Being,

I want to write to you so I can let you know that you have let me down. I could write the words over and over again, but I realize it changes nothing. I could scream it at the top of my lungs and let the world know how you have hurt me, but the past will not hear me or pay me any mind. I could hate you. I could keep that hatred for you deep inside me and let it hide there safely as a reminder of the pain you brought me. But I am the only one who knows that it exists and let's it eat away at my heart, So why create it? I was your friend. I was your family. I was your lover. You are a person that could have been any number of things to me. Heartbreak plays no favorites when it chooses people in life to let you down. I really always had faith in you. I trusted you and the promises that you made to me. I believed in your aspirations and disregarded your ambiguity. I let you in, against my best wishes. I relentlessly defended you. I saw the Beautiful parts of who you were. I made plans with you and kept them in my head like a guaranteed magnificent destination. I loved you. I gave you all that I had and now I'm left empty and cheated. But do you know what the strangest and most unbelievably frustrating part of all this is? I Forgive You!!!! You and I are different people, but in the end we are the same. We are only human. As humans, we let each other down. We promise love before we know what it really means. We abuse Trust. We break Hearts. We make Mistakes. I have made my fair share of mistakes as well. I'm sure I have hurt you too. I know there are parts of you that I will never understand and therefore cannot fit into the small boxes of reasoning that I have tried to place around these complex situations. I know that there was a reason why I believed in you, and therefore there is a reason why I still want the Absolute best for you. Friendship, family, and relationships seem so well defined with their expectations, but very rarely are all those expectations going to be met. That is the chance you take in believing in people. In the end, loving each other teaches us about love, as a separate and beautiful entity that is unparalleled to anything else in this world. You could be a lover, friend, parent, child, or borderline strangers. Whoever you are, I want you to know that you have hurt me, but I forgive you. I don't just forgive you because I have forgotten. I don't forgive you because I don't want to deal with recognition of your actions. I don't forgive you because it makes me feel like a good person. On the contrary, I forgive you because I remember. I remember that you are human and humans teach each other in both positive and negative ways. I remember that you brought me memories and emotions that made me feel alive. I remember that if you were worth my trust and love, you are worth my Forgiveness and I am worth the Relief of being able to let go. I know I am strong and alive, and free to experience all the depths of Love and Loss. I am blessed for the moments that I have lost. You are a Piece of me, and that piece will not eat away at my Soul like Hatred would. It will live inside of me in a place that is preserved by Forgiveness and Humility. And for that I will be a better person going Forward.

P.S. Forgiveness will make the future kinder to the both of us.

Sincerely,

Another Human Being.