Have you ever felt so alone in this world, that it feels like everyone is against you? That you have no one to talk to? That no one will be there for you, especially when you need them most. Well let me hit you with reality. They probably won't be there for you, they'll act like they care and they'll say that they will be there for you, but right when things get hard they leave. I know that for a fact, no one has ever just stayed by my side, they always left when things got hard and I needed someone there for me. They always act like they care don't they? It's a nice feeling, right? Yeah, because it makes you feel special. Like you actually mean something to someone. I've been told many lies before. But one of my favorite lies has always been "I won't leave, I promise. Don't worry." Well you take that shit to heart and really don't worry and you think about that and then one day you need help and you go to that person who promised you that they would never leave, and then they leave. It's what reality is.

I have taught myself not to think about you often.

But when my mind wanders I find myself thinking about you and all the memories we had.

I now try my hardest to keep busy so my thoughts don't wander back to you, and that my mind never wanders into its deepest imaginations.

Every time my mind wanders to you my heart breaks just a little more then before.

I know that your thoughts wander as well, but I also know that it never wanders to me, and that I never cross your mind as much as you cross mine.

I see your monsters

I see your pain

Tell me your problems

I'll chase them away

I'll be your lighthouse

I'll be okay

When I see your monsters

I'll stand there so brave

And chase them all away

A cup of coffee still steaming

Staring back at me, it's blacker then night

I'm awake but still sleeping

I keep telling myself

I'll be alright (I won't)

And I know I can't get worse then today

Sitting here and she's trying to rehearse what to say

While she's getting used to the sound of a teardrop

And I know it's been awhile sense you've seen me

Smile and laugh like I used to

Just take me to the past

'Cause I can't imagine losing you too

I can't explain this so I'll keep it all inside

Wear my pain, but it's masked by my pride

I see your monsters