Hidden Feelings
Im exuasted of trying everyday
Tired of crying everyday
Yeah im smiling everyday
But truley inside im dying everday
They criticize me daily
I laugh it off
They think im crazy
But I wont corrupt
They hurt me painfully
But i wont give up
Ill just keep on striving
and ill keep pulling myself back up
If you knew me you still wouldnt know
Because trust me this fake smile wont go
Im litteraly dead inside but i dont care though
You dont have to care cause im solo riding the most
Now you notice
Yet you were never there
Now you try to help me
When i'd rather be dead
Should it be a book
For all of my followers and other readers i would like to ask if ishould write another chapter for "ive survived the worst now im living the best"
I would love to know
Thankyou very much
AND I WAS SUPRISED BY ALL OF THE LIKES AND COMMENTS I GOT
Plus im only thirteen and have alot of creativity
Gods Commitment
Bound to a cross nevermore to be seen again to Blaze in the Flares of Satan's bane.
I vowed to achieve this for all but not in eqaulity nor egoliatic Honeralism.
Decades I was said as myth but many still acredit me, Praying and Vouching to me everyday.
I try to sojourn in those hearts the best, but I fail to avail. I need durability to help me rise again. Even if I'm the might god they say I still have my Achilles.
I despise not one but am still vanquisged in myself for not striving hard enough to succor others to believe. I want all to know my name and be proud of who I am but not in selfishness.
I yurn for folks to praise me, to love me, to vow to me but unfortunately not everyone acquiesce. Though in this day not everything is perfect I still loved what I did so my family, You can live in a Voluminous life. I knew that I wouldn't strive on if I didn't achieve anything for all.
But I want to re live and rise upon my invisible grave. I believ
Despite the fact that people say I'm preeminent I still yurn to live again and run this world to revolve world peace.
I can't remain cascrated because I'm bound to this world.
I will recompense
This isn't Done with
For reference I am
The all mighty god
I survived the worst, now I’m living the best
Lightning struck as rain pored down as seen throughout the dull cracked windows of the small room.A boy sat in that small room scared and helpless. The trees shadowed creepily in the room from the stocks of brown crackly stomps that formed outside and grew tall enough just to reach a poor little boys window.
Sitting in silence that boy had a pain in his heart. An unknown pain, something he was to little to understand well about. But he knew it had something to do with the way his life was now.
The more he felt it was the more he cowered helplessly in the conner of the dull dark room. He felt his eyes sting as the burning acid that couldn't actually hurt you physically but for him mentally poor from his now puffed eyes. He rocked himself back and forth in a daze of silence trying to not make any sound as if he would die if so. He shaked, shivered, scared of what would happen next.
The liquid rolled down his pale face. He tried to suck it in but obviously couldnt because of how broken he was and how despondent he felt. The lightning struck again and the boy whimpered his eyes watering more as he wiped his face on his white ripped dirt stained shirt he had on and rubbed his hand on his ripped stitched shorts he managed to keep on.
He got up and decided to go to the filthy Piece of mattress he supposedly but not voulenterly has to sleep on.
He Layed down and scrunched up his nose to the disgusting smell of the torn used up bed he Layed upon.
He curled in a ball whimpering as more tears fell from is colered red eyes that didn't seem to want to to go away no matter how much he tried to stop the tears. He always thought that no one wanted him, we'll actually knew that no one wanted him his parents didn't even want him but he still hoped. Although up to how he lived now his hope was almost shattered.
He also hoped no one heard him in this room cause he was supposed to be asleep, he wants no one to hear him especially the one that put him there.Even though kroyce lived this way he always managed to keep on going because of the Quote his friend that was now six feet underground told him. It was a her fault she's there. He still Rembered it 'Survive the worst days to live a better tommorow'. He Sobbed more at that thought thus getting tired of his useless whimpers and finally closed his eyes relived that he could at least get some sleep for the time being....
The next day was the same thing that happens everyday it was like he was born to live this life.
"Get up you little runt and get to cleaning with those other filthy rodents" Manasude the care giver of the boy and other children that lived in the orphanage. The boy Quickly awakened looking around to see Manasude or the devil he calls her.
"Y- yes mam" the boy quickly got up and ran to the living room to see the other children already up and cleaning so he went to the kitcheb. Although this was a common thing she made them do it was still hard to concentrate from all the beating's she gave them and the dreadful bruises that were left behind when done also because of the lack of food they had.
Once done with that he started cleaning the kitchen. Scrubbing the counters,washing the dishes, moping the floors just like they all did every day. It was like a routine to him.
He got up about to wipe the stove when Mansude called him.
" Kryoce come here sweety" she called in that fake voice she always uses when visitors or adaptors come but he knew it was just all for show. He headed to front of the house where the lounge room that they are not actually able to use.
Once he finally reached their he was me the eyes of Manasude and two wealthy looking adults that looked happy.
"Kryoce these two nice people came here and claimed they wanted to adopt you, and want you to be apart of their humble home & family, Go get your tings from your room" she says in the fictitious tone.
"Oh no no its ok we will be buying him a whole new wardrobe he doesn't need to bring anything" the angelic lady said in a sweet tone that was certainly not fake at all. The beautiful women grabbed his hand as Manasude sneered but surely enough hid it well."Okay bye bye kroyce, I'm gonna miss you so much I hope you visit very soon" She said and put a mocking smile on. All kroyce did was turn and started walking out the door with his the strangers he probably could call parents, still In a daze and in shock of someone finally wanting him even though of all the time he was their he thought no one did.
Heading outside Kroyce was surprised to see a very long car that looked outstandingly fancy. He believed it was called a limo if he recalled from most of the things he learned in life. Walking towards the long vehicle kroyce gazed at it like it was the greatest thing to ever exist. These people must be rich kroyce thought. Although they are rich kroyce wouldn't even think twice to take advantage of them he would never do anything like that. He would appreciate it and try his best not to grow on to it. He thought it was evil and sinful to take advantage of someone who is doing good for you. As he stander their dumbfounded he was snapped out of his thinking when he heard his new foster parents calling him. Walking to the door about to open it he was stopped by a man in a suit. That man opened the door for kroyce as kroyce looked at him weirdly but got in anyway.
As the limo started Kroyce buckeled his seatbelt already knowing he would have to. They sat In silence but kroyce was the one to break it surprisingly. "E-e-excuse me m-miss and mister w-would I have any siblings" he managed to stutter out. "Yes honey you will have siblings and you'll meet them soon" The gorgeous women replied with a smile.
"And call us mom and dad you are officially part of the family" After that small conversation the limo countinued in silence.
After an hour or so the limo entered a large gate that leaded to a mansion. Kroyce gasped and the two adults or so he called them mom & dad smiled at him.
Once the vehicle stopped they all got out and headed to the gigantic door of the mansion.
While they entered kroyce thought he never seen anything this beautiful in his life as he eyed the palace before him. It was beautiful and Kroyce loved it he couldn't wait to live here. There were red carpets all througout the mansion. With a temwin staircase. They even had a transparent elevator. The few minutes he toke to admire the mansion gazing in amazment they finally called his new siblings down.
"Boy's come down stairs" The handsome man he knew he could call dad said.
Six pairs of footsteps came down stairs and he saw six boy his age or above.To say he was shocked was a understatement. He knew he'd have siblings but not six and all boy's. "You guys should introduce yourseves"
And so they did...
"Hi I'm Montese and I'm 7 years old" the blond blue eyes boy said. He looked like the smart one in the family but why label it. Although he would probably need homework help in future.
" Hello I'm Cannith and I'm 9 years old" the brunet haired boy spoke.This boy seemed as if he would grow up to be a gentleman. He hoped so, he wouldn't want to live in a house of savages but even if so he didn't care. He knew he would grow to love his brothers when he grew up no matter how they act.
"I'm Jayson and that's Maeson my other twin brother and we're 6 years old" a orange haired boy said pointing to the copy look alike of him. Kroyce knew that even growing up he would accidently mistake one for the other. They both had on wide smiles.
"Nice to meet you I'm Blake and I'm 10 years old" This child was the fifth child. As seen to Kroyce he was cute and had Dark Brown hair with emerald eyes like diamonds. His hair was a quiff to the side while his eyes were wide and happy with delight bit at the same time narrowed. His eyebrows arched and his nose scrunched as he put on a silly smile that made him very aprochable. Kroyce could tell Tha'd he had to be the joker of the family.
"And lastly I'm the oldest I'm Reece and I'm 12 years old, welcome to the family" the eldest seemed like the most responsable one but has fun when its actually time to play or joke around. He'd probably be the one to stop the fun when it wasn't time to loligag around. He seemed like a protective person.
Kroyce automatically felt love towars his brothers, mother and father. He was so happy to fianally have a family that wanted him.
Kroyce blinked but still smiled as he tilted his head to the side in away they all thought was cute.
Kroyce finally had the courage to speak "Um I'm Kryoce and I'm 5 years old nice to meet you too"
They all smiled "Well welcome to the family Kroyce" They all said. Kroyce smiled back tears welling up in his eyes as he couldn't controll the happiness that radiated off of him.
"T-thank you.... thank you fianally letting me look back on the worst days so I can have a better tommorow and in fact a better today, I'm glad you guys chose me" Kroyce quoted remembering what his friend said tears forming in his eyes and not miserable ones happy ones.vffgh