I sat and wrote.

Wrote down all that I had to say.

I tried to cry,

however my tears felt heavy.

Every tear drop felt like added sorrow.

I sat and remembered our laughters.

Our memories and jokes.

Suddenly a smile appeared on my face.

I tried to forget him.

His scent covered everything.

His smile brought me happiness.

He brought me sanity and peace.

It felt like his memory had found home in my surroundings.

Each time I tried writing down all I had to say,

the pen refused obedience.

His memory clouded my mind.

And my words sliped to another dimension.

I'm sorry.

I wasn't honest,

with you and myself.

I led you on and lied to myself.

I convinced the both of us.

I created a cloud over my lies and made it seem like a rainbow of truth.

I'm truly sorry.

I'm sorry.

I can't be with you.

I can't go on with the lieing.

It's time to set myself entirely free and live a life of truth.

I'm truly sorry.

I'm sorry.

I was afraid of the truth.

I let lies define me,

Well no more!

I'm starting to let the light shine through the darkness.

That means letting you go.

I'm sorry.

I can't do this anymore.

I'm truly sorry.

Dear pearl,

take care of him.

My fragile soul won't take anymore pain.

Oh dear pearl take care of him.

Dear pearl,

love him.

For his love has no measure, for it's what makes him unique.

Oh dear pearl love him.

Dear pearl,

listen to him.

For he'll take you to a far way place with unspoken magic.

Oh dear pearl listen to him.

Dear pearl,

I write this letter with great happiness and sadness.

For even though I'm not his happiness anymore.

His happiness remains a beautiful sight to see.

Promises are meant to be kept.

Well she kept her broken promise,

crucify her!

When you do find her.

Your poor soul, rest your poor soul.

For what you've felt is unbearable,

for those scars are remarkable.

Your heart was broken.

She mended it and broke it again.

She always came back and gave you hope.

Than disappeared into the wild once more.

She promised you she'd stay...

Well she kept her broken promise.

She stayed inlove.

While wondering in this dangerous world.

She promised you she'd stay.

Well she kept her broken promise...

In the end.

I wrote a letter to myself. It spoke of this boy. This boy who I learnt to forgive. Whom I swore never to meet again. Forgiveness was hard since his face was like the break of dawn. His memory opened each wound, I swore no more.

To my surprise you came. Redeemer. My knight in shining armour. My wolf in sheeps clothing. You taught me to laugh. To smile again. Love again. You did so unintentionally. You taught me all but to live without you. Now you’re gone and I remember why, why I swore no more.

Remember our silly jokes. Remember how you taught me never to give up. Remember our awkward moments. Remember how we built what we have. Where all this started. Remember the firefly that grabbed your attention, how you caught it with you corny jokes. How it fought to light up your dark moments. How it fought to remind you that your destiny is written in the starts as in your name. How your philophobia shut that one glowing light. Remember me when I'm gone. For I fought against my light to stay by your side.

You're something I can't quite explain. Someone I can't forgot. We click instantaneously, I'm constantly learning more and more about you. You have the ability to change my mood. That's a dangerous ability, one that I can't have directed towards me. You're not like the rest and the rest ain't like you. However you and the rest have common tricks. And I've been hurt by too many tricks, I can't afford any more damage. S/O you're my fairytale dressed in a nightmare

Trust me he said...

It won't hurt,

I'll be gentle he said.

I gave in.

I opened my heart,

let him see my soul.

In he came.

Shots fired, blood shed,

tears rolling down my eyes.

Trust me he said...

It won't hurt,

I'll be gentle he said.

Till this day.

I've never heard his voice again.

Never felt his warm touch again.

Trust me he said...

Hear my cries, I plead. Feel my pain. See my wounds. Skin torn from within.

Hold me close. Heal my pain. Remind me who I am. I feel lost in this place. Hear my cries, I plead. Cleanse my soul for it yearns for peace. For the storm within reigns of terror. Hear my cries, I plead. For there's no more light left in me.

Hear cries.

Forget her personality and remember your humanity. Feel her vulnerability and let her go. Let go of your urges and think about how your 5 minute is going to change her entire life. How it's going to change her mindset. You really want to kill a soul just because of pleasure? Look in her eyes and see her vulnerability. For the moment you ignore her "NO" is the moment you become the villain. For you are meant to be her guardian not the person she fears. Look deep in yourself and see the monster you've become!