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~the direction ink fades

I wonder if he'll search 

for me

the way he does himself

 

turn pockets inside

out

for a lost identity

lift the curve of my 

shadow from the mattress

and discover that

emptiness finds itself

deep in creases

 

spent in dark rooms

 

 

 

he won't see me there

 

I'm wrapped up

buried 

inside a word

that he can't pronounce 

but if he dissects it

spreads it out

in front of him

 

maybe he would realize

how every letter

spells his name

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~the direction ink fades
I wonder if he'll search 
for me
the way he does himself
 
turn pockets inside
out
for a lost identity
lift the curve of my 
shadow from the mattress
and discover that
emptiness finds itself
deep in creases
 
spent in dark rooms
 
 
 
he won't see me there
 
I'm wrapped up
buried 
inside a word
that he can't pronounce 
but if he dissects it
spreads it out
in front of him
 
maybe he would realize
how every letter
spells his name
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
lah  5.23.12. ©®
#poetry  #reflection  #relationships  #thoughts  #personal  #pain  #sadness  #alcoholism  #emotional  #selfishasshole 
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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse

~wait

take this hour

a prelude to dawn

the coming day dressed

in white lab coats & pale blue

masks

I imagine your rememberings

spinning counterclockwise

as you count backwards

into this deepest 

sleep

as if passing through

your own darkness

to where the pomegranate

has burst

at the base of your brain

a cold room of metal

echoes

& red ink blots

how your veins will sting

before they light the wick

lah  3.14.17 ©®

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~wait





take this hour
a prelude to dawn

the coming day dressed
in white lab coats & pale blue
masks

I imagine your rememberings
spinning counterclockwise
as you count backwards
into this deepest 
sleep

as if passing through
your own darkness
to where the pomegranate
has burst
at the base of your brain

a cold room of metal
echoes
& red ink blots

how your veins will sting
before they light the wick









lah  3.14.17 ©®
#poetry  #reflection  #thoughts  #personal  #pain  #sadness  #emotional  #brainsurgery  #mydaddy  #stroke 
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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse

~finding the roots of faith

      how else to begin

      but at the altar of

      her heart

because she is

made of curves

of hipbones

& eyelashes

& breasts

even as hours

quicken the air

she stravages a

ghostfield, collects

voices

tucks them pocket-

deep, listening for

an echo

      even as she borrows

      blue memories from

      rain, cradles their fragile

      depth at the edge of

      breath, we observe here

      a hundred thousand miles

      of her hushed voice

because her cursive shadows

are made of ink

lah  3.10.17 ©®

Dedicated to my wonderful friend, Faith Atuhumuze, a marvelous Ugandan poet.

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~finding the roots of faith
      how else to begin
      but at the altar of
      her heart


because she is
made of curves


of hipbones
& eyelashes
& breasts


even as hours
quicken the air
she stravages a
ghostfield, collects
voices


tucks them pocket-
deep, listening for
an echo


      even as she borrows
      blue memories from
      rain, cradles their fragile
      depth at the edge of
      breath, we observe here
      a hundred thousand miles
      of her hushed voice


because her cursive shadows
are made of ink









lah  3.10.17 ©®

Dedicated to my wonderful friend, Faith Atuhumuze, a marvelous Ugandan poet.
#poetry  #thoughts  #personal  #dedication 
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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse

~in the periphery

 

 

 

       the deeper the darkness

       the holier shall be the water

 

 

 

 

snowflowers have since melted

 

pale petals, fallen away in absence

as absinthe to all that is green

 

the summerbirds now arrive in anticipation

       fluently lyrical

their feathered throats trill a blossoming song

 

& just as the sunday before

an undisturbed mauve rush of clouds

       quiet as breath

swells the ungated sky

 

an almost mournful reminder that

within inevitable change

some things must remain unnoticed

 

like two lost wings

navigating the pentecostal wind

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

lah  3.25.16 ©®

 

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~in the periphery
 
 
 
       the deeper the darkness
       the holier shall be the water
 
 
 
 
snowflowers have since melted
 
pale petals, fallen away in absence
as absinthe to all that is green
 
the summerbirds now arrive in anticipation
       fluently lyrical
their feathered throats trill a blossoming song
 
& just as the sunday before
an undisturbed mauve rush of clouds
       quiet as breath
swells the ungated sky
 
an almost mournful reminder that
within inevitable change
some things must remain unnoticed
 
like two lost wings
navigating the pentecostal wind
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
lah  3.25.16 ©®
 
#poetry  #reflection  #thoughts  #personal  #change  #enlightenment 
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~blasphemy & behavior

 

 

 

 

 

the end always

fucks me

in the beginning

 

 

like the second

cumming

between unspread

legs

& organ music

lodged in my

throat

 

 

twin shadows creep

a mirror-dance

as we toast wine

to the body

 

 

breathing hard enough

to paint flesh

with the sweat

of a deep-red

crocus

or a pale altar boy

 

 

 

 

 

 

lah  7.28.12 ©®

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~blasphemy & behavior
 
 
 
 
 
the end always
fucks me
in the beginning
 
 
like the second
cumming
between unspread
legs


& organ music
lodged in my
throat
 
 
twin shadows creep
a mirror-dance
as we toast wine
to the body
 
 
breathing hard enough
to paint flesh
with the sweat
of a deep-red
crocus


or a pale altar boy
 
 
 
 
 
 
lah  7.28.12 ©®
#poetry  #thoughts  #personal  #innuendo  #sexual 
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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse

~paroxysms

i.

perhaps rain was

the reason

for an almost biblical

bloodwet flood

unclotting the swiftstream

from thrown stones

& their unholy damning

ii.

notice the thin bird

collapsing breathless

         restless

caged behind barreled

ribs with wings unhinged

     & folded prayerlike

anticipating the tilt

of a lifting wind

iii.

I have not forgotten

how september's storm

arrived & sky thundered

open

a hole where summer

used to shine

its darkening pulse pelted

the pane

thrashed the wheat

a home, shaken from its

foundation

only one red umbrella left

leaning against a ventricular wall

iv.

apparently, poetry is inked

on prescription bottles

& served in uneven lines

on a crooked spine

perched like poe's

raven

tap tap tapping bare nerves

exposing light to a slight

curve of hip

v.

autumn summers here

settles in & folds itself

to stillness

as if a morning fog

that refuses to rise

for yellowing skies

another day pauses

         pronounces its grey

vi.

with winter comes

the color of cold water

& numb fingers

this blinding sun pretends

   not to see

the way it pierces the skull

with pine needles

         hurdles a voice

         miles ago

flattens shadows & all things

unwritten

to the white paperfields

buries half a body in the thickness

of snow

lah 4.21.16 ©®

V1 - rain = blood ~ i have clotting issues & use thinners to prevent transient ischemic attacks

V2 - bird = lungs ~ i have stage four copd & eleven spontaneous lung collapses, use oxygen, nebulizers & inhalers to breathe

V3 - storm = heart ~ i had a pfo (hole between the walls of the heart)  i have an implant shaped like an umbrella

V4 - raven = spine ~ i have scoliosis, among several other spinal conditions, including herniated discs, stenosis, facet syndrome, that require pain meds

V5 - fog = fibromyalgia ~ i have fibro/cfs and often spend days in a fog of confusion

V6 - winter = brain ~ i have TIA (mentioned above) and hemiplegic migraines that cause many neurological problems including temporary one-sided paralysis, blindness & aphasia

me...metaphorically speaking. 

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~paroxysms





i.
perhaps rain was
the reason
for an almost biblical
bloodwet flood


unclotting the swiftstream
from thrown stones


& their unholy damning



ii.
notice the thin bird
collapsing breathless


         restless


caged behind barreled
ribs with wings unhinged
     & folded prayerlike


anticipating the tilt
of a lifting wind



iii.
I have not forgotten
how september's storm
arrived & sky thundered
open


a hole where summer
used to shine


its darkening pulse pelted
the pane
thrashed the wheat


a home, shaken from its
foundation


only one red umbrella left
leaning against a ventricular wall



iv.
apparently, poetry is inked
on prescription bottles
& served in uneven lines
on a crooked spine


perched like poe's
raven
tap tap tapping bare nerves


exposing light to a slight
curve of hip



v.
autumn summers here


settles in & folds itself
to stillness


as if a morning fog
that refuses to rise
for yellowing skies


another day pauses
         pronounces its grey



vi.
with winter comes
the color of cold water
& numb fingers


this blinding sun pretends
   not to see
the way it pierces the skull
with pine needles


         hurdles a voice
         miles ago


flattens shadows & all things
unwritten
to the white paperfields


buries half a body in the thickness
of snow





lah 4.21.16 ©®


V1 - rain = blood ~ i have clotting issues & use thinners to prevent transient ischemic attacks

V2 - bird = lungs ~ i have stage four copd & eleven spontaneous lung collapses, use oxygen, nebulizers & inhalers to breathe

V3 - storm = heart ~ i had a pfo (hole between the walls of the heart)  i have an implant shaped like an umbrella

V4 - raven = spine ~ i have scoliosis, among several other spinal conditions, including herniated discs, stenosis, facet syndrome, that require pain meds

V5 - fog = fibromyalgia ~ i have fibro/cfs and often spend days in a fog of confusion

V6 - winter = brain ~ i have TIA (mentioned above) and hemiplegic migraines that cause many neurological problems including temporary one-sided paralysis, blindness & aphasia

me...metaphorically speaking. 
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~calculating who I am

I am one alone

the sum of two

divided

the subtraction of

together

a fraction of a

whole

I am the remainder

lah  5.20.11 ©®

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~calculating who I am
I am one alone


the sum of two
divided


the subtraction of
together


a fraction of a
whole



I am the remainder
















lah  5.20.11 ©®
#poetry  #reflection  #relationships  #thoughts  #personal  #marriage  #micropoetry  #sadness  #goodbyes  #divorce  #mathmaticalequation 
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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse

~internal baptism

 

 

 

 

 

I am pale air

 

 

perhaps I have fallen into

the bone-white ghost

of my own reflection

as it ripples

the distance of

dark blue

 

 

call me alice as I slip

through the hole -

through the whole

of me

& find that my lungs

can hear things

see things

feel things

 

 

like cold radiance

or

an enticing warmth

in the deep below

 

 

& when I resurface

I'll write of swallowing

the river

& my discovery

of holy water

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  lah  6.27.12 ©®

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~internal baptism
 
 
 
 
 
I am pale air
 
 
perhaps I have fallen into
the bone-white ghost
of my own reflection
as it ripples
the distance of
dark blue
 
 
call me alice as I slip
through the hole -
through the whole
of me
& find that my lungs
can hear things
see things
feel things
 
 
like cold radiance
or
an enticing warmth
in the deep below
 
 
& when I resurface
I'll write of swallowing
the river
& my discovery
of holy water
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
  lah  6.27.12 ©®
#poetry  #reflection  #thoughts  #personal  #change 
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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse

~the seasons of me

 

 

 

 

x. autumn

 

 

maybe I have an illness

a disease

 

the falling away of

my flesh

 

too many bright colors

of ache

 

& bones stripped

by vultures

until all that remains is

the marrow

 

 

 

x. winter

 

 

consider it a method

of exposure

a glimpse of me

naked

 

bare

 

sleeves of ice

but living like a winter

without snow

 

the cold distance

between breaths

fogs the view

 

to warm myself

with whiskey

doesn't melt the

core

 

it only sweats against

the glass shell

& puddles beneath

 

 

 

x. spring

 

 

perhaps I'm delightful ruins

in a dark room

 

or the intimacy of

thin clouds as they come

together

 

our intercourse of rain

pounds the ground

to plant seeds of indifference

among peonies

 

& how the friction

of ghosts emerge

from the trees

 

 

 

x. summer

 

 

maybe my hands have become

the tremble of a butterfly

searching for a safe

spot to land

 

one still perfect flower

 

an invitation to drink

sweet nectar

 

to become intoxicated

to quiver for a moment

 

& soar on alone

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

lah  6.8.12 ©®

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Written by InkArtist in portal Poetry & Free Verse
~the seasons of me
 
 
 
 
x. autumn
 
 
maybe I have an illness
a disease
 
the falling away of
my flesh
 
too many bright colors
of ache
 
& bones stripped
by vultures
until all that remains is
the marrow
 
 
 
x. winter
 
 
consider it a method
of exposure
a glimpse of me
naked
 
bare
 
sleeves of ice
but living like a winter
without snow
 
the cold distance
between breaths
fogs the view
 
to warm myself
with whiskey
doesn't melt the
core
 
it only sweats against
the glass shell
& puddles beneath
 
 
 
x. spring
 
 
perhaps I'm delightful ruins
in a dark room
 
or the intimacy of
thin clouds as they come
together
 
our intercourse of rain
pounds the ground
to plant seeds of indifference
among peonies
 
& how the friction
of ghosts emerge
from the trees
 
 
 
x. summer
 
 
maybe my hands have become
the tremble of a butterfly
searching for a safe
spot to land
 
one still perfect flower
 
an invitation to drink
sweet nectar
 
to become intoxicated
to quiver for a moment
 
& soar on alone
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
lah  6.8.12 ©®

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~drowning in the backwater

touch is a ritual

not a metaphor

it's a drunken migration

through my backyard

where the groundwater burns

where the air surrounding us

is mouthless & borrowing time

like circles of voices

bending echoes in the

unrelenting black

but as an aging mirror listens with

the trees

there is nothing more to hear

because the wind that was here

is gone

because hours long

night is dead verbs in an

uncrowded room

made of rain, made of breath

as we archive the scents of our ghosts

& I curl into a comma

my fingers are wet-knots of ink

with the burden of words

my body remembering when your body

was like summer & I was

an iris, unfolding

but now this bed shakes thunder

from a chimera sky

this bed is

heavy with bruised plums

heavy with you

lah  2.27.17 ©®

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Written by InkArtist in portal Stream of Consciousness
~drowning in the backwater
touch is a ritual
not a metaphor
it's a drunken migration
through my backyard
where the groundwater burns
where the air surrounding us
is mouthless & borrowing time
like circles of voices
bending echoes in the
unrelenting black
but as an aging mirror listens with
the trees
there is nothing more to hear
because the wind that was here
is gone
because hours long
night is dead verbs in an
uncrowded room
made of rain, made of breath
as we archive the scents of our ghosts
& I curl into a comma
my fingers are wet-knots of ink
with the burden of words
my body remembering when your body
was like summer & I was
an iris, unfolding
but now this bed shakes thunder
from a chimera sky
this bed is
heavy with bruised plums
heavy with you









lah  2.27.17 ©®
#poetry  #reflection  #relationships  #thoughts  #personal  #marriage  #introspection  #sadness  #streamofconciousness  #divorce  #separation  #retrospection 
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