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Listlessly lying on the white topped bed,
Intensely focused on the slightly crooked tile on my glorified cage's ceiling.
Safely balancing on the line between boredom and survival.
Trying not to think about days back then,
Entertainment taken for granted, and
Normal was a characteristic of a person.
Quantity Over Quality
I placed the last box down with a thump.
"Whew." I was feeling good as I walked into the hall, which was filled with tables topped with open boxes of cans, bottles, and packets. Soon a middle-aged woman walked in. I greeted her with a smile only to receive a frown. "Maybe she's having a bad day," I thought, walking her through the hall, my smile steady.
"Only one?" She read, pointing to a stack of bologna.
"Yes, only one." I responded.
She grimaced, said "why should I have to eat this, it's so fake," took three, and walked out.
5-10-24
Today I accidentally washed my hands. And it won't come off.
5-7-24
It it coming off, but I had to really try.
I thought I would feel relieved. I don't.
6-7-24
I am so happy!! I feel like a new person. I'm already craving the rush I feel at the tic of his hand when time swirls, and my memories unfurl until nothings left, but the joys of youth and an energy surplus.
6-8-24
Today we are going to an escape room. I am so excited. I am going to turn all the sinks on till their hands turn black and they feel it every second of the day, as they are dying away.
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What is wrong with me
My hands, are cracking?
There is no actual way, like w h a t t h e s i g m a ? ? ?
6-9-24
I am an anomaly.
I have to run.
My parents kicked me out.
That rush.
I will never feel again.
I will never forget.
Anything.
3-11-27
I am Cleo.
A 17 year old female.
I am a part of the troupe. Number 174.
I am not an anomaly.
I am something else altogether.
And I love to destroy.
Because I get to see their faces when I do. And never forget them.
That is something to be thankful for.