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LadyPurple3
Trying to figure out this thing called Life.
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Pearls
A sentence you always wanted to hear. Be it for you from someone (family/friends/pet etc) or anything that is not really approved in this world. Just anything which you seek to hear. Take it deep or funny! (not necessary that it has to be 15 words. Even 3 lettered "i love you" would work but to fill the word limit, do it alright!
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Money

Here's a million dollars. Now you can pay off your debts and help your family.

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Explain an emotion
Recently I have been having trouble once again understanding emotions. I don't mind what you write, just try and explain an emotion in any way to me. It would be much appreciated. Feel free to try again as many times as you like, I do enjoy reading.
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LadyPurple3
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Abandonment

Is he going to message me today? I stare at my instant messenger, hoping he respond to my many messages and memes. Will he finally give me the acknowledgement I need? Even if he just says hi I still get that rush, that feeling of being necessary, that feeling of being wanted.

Who is he spending his time with? Who is keeping him from messaging me? I free fall into my feelings of abandonment. There is no trampoline at the bottom. I fall into my heart, feeling like a waste of time. Will anyone ever want to talk to me? Will anyone ever want to waste their time on me?

Why won’t he talk to me? Should I call? If I call I will seem needy. I am though. I am in need of attention, in need of someone telling me I am okay. Just a simple

acknowledgement of a conversation with me makes me feel like I am worth something.

Why won’t he acknowledge me? Why doesn’t he care?

I know why--because we are nothing. I mean nothing to him. I am not as important as his latest girlfriend or whatever person he is with. But it is okay. We aren’t anything.

I am nothing and I am all alone.

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Tell me something about yourself, tell me why you feel that way about yourself.
Its rather personal you don't need to answer but I've written something if you want to read it be my guest.
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LadyPurple3
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Thoughts.

The thoughts start to swirl. I look to my left and I turn to my right but I can’t move. I am stuck in my own mind again, hearing the same words over and over. Oh the self hatred. Oh the constant questions. “Will I get better? When will I get better? Will I ever get better? When will this be over?”

I am in another mood again.

I hate my inability to change myself quickly. I hate it because it prevents me from making progress. Why can’t I snap my fingers and lose 100 pounds? Why can’t I just drink a potion that will give me self-esteem? Why do I need to take medicine to make me not want to throw a toaster in my next bath?

I get stuck in my thoughts. I am losing Hope. If I ever have a daughter (as if I am worthy of reproducing anyway even as my child birthing years die with every New Year’s Eve) I will name her Hope because then I can always say “I have Hope!” and never lose her or the feeling. But alas, I am a waste of time, a waste of space, a waste of a person.

“It’s not good to hate yourself,” everyone tells me. I know this. I tell the kids to love themselves. I am a hypocrite. I need to change this...but my personal development changes as fast as a snail.

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